Friday, August 24, 2007

FAITH FORWARD FRIDAY: ACCEPTING CHANGE AND LETTING GO OF EGO

It is good to have a Sister and friends who will listen and offer wise council. Yesterday I was BLUE. Today not so blue. My Sister Lo, reminded me that change can be good. That I am just downsizing from a bigger space to a smaller space. New neighborhood, new living space, new beginning. So few get the opportunity to start again. Perhaps this isn't what I wanted, but the universe is nudging me forward and everything will be fine. I know this and I welcome this. I have to give myself permission to feel what I am feeling in that moment. I am so afraid of losing control of my emotions that I just hold it all in as if that denotes strength. It doesn't. It only sets me up for illness and dis-ease. When I look down the road behind me it amazes me how far I have come. It takes my breath away recalling all that I have endured to get to this place. I am not unhappy, nor am I sad. I remain steadfast in my belief that God has my back. So I am doing my best to lay my ego aside and not care so much about what others think about me, or my current state of affairs. I know what needs to be done in my life and I am doing it. Yep, I am not so blue to today. I am keeping the faith, baby.

1 comment:

BottleBlonde said...

I am so afraid of losing control of my emotions that I just hold it all in as if that denotes strength. It doesn't. It only sets me up for illness and dis-ease.

I can relate. I still hold onto emotions so as not to appear vulnerable, and it leads me to temporary insanity e-v-e-r-y t-i-m-e. NOT a good thing. Fortunately for me I'm working through that bad habit.

P.S. What a difference a day makes, eh?!