Thursday, August 23, 2007
If I sit still and really think about what I am up against, I swear I will just jump off a building. I feel as if I am carrying the world on my shoulders and if I stop to ponder the reality of things, it will all come crashing down. Yep, I am feeling blue today. Maybe because I just got my period and the chemical imbalance is manifesting itself in a bad mood. I just want to crawl back into bed and veg for the day. And let the kids just watch mindless TV. I am feeling blue today. I just talked to my estranged husband and he can be such an asshole about well, everything. But mostly about money. He seems to think I should have more than I do--well maybe if I didn't have to buy school clothes, sneakers, shoes, etc and pay a few bills. And whatever else he thinks magically happens. I am feeling blue today. I have to get organized to pack down my house and get ready for the move, which maybe sometime in October. I haven't heard from the Federal Corrections Institution about my report date--the sooner I get in, the sooner I get out. Yep, I am blue today. I am blue today and I have no idea how I am going to shake it. Maybe I will just live with it for today and allow myself some Blue time.