Thursday, November 29, 2012

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Dear Brothers:

I found this on Facebook and was so moved that I just had to post it here.  I have no idea who the author is... her name is listed at the end.  This is DIVINE and I can't stop reading it. I want to become the very last paragraph; that's the woman of my dreams.


If you want to change the world… Love a woman - really love her. Find the one who calls to your soul, who doesn’t make sense.

Throw away your check list and put your ear to her heart and listen. Hear the names, the prayers,

the songs of every living thing-every winged one, every furry and scaled one, every underground and underwater one, every green and flowering one, every not yet born and dying one…

Hear their melancholy praises back to the One who gave them life. If you haven’t heard your own name yet, you haven’t listened long enough.

If your eyes aren’t filled with tears, if you aren’t bowing at her feet, you haven’t ever grieved having almost lost her. If you want to change the world…

Love a woman - one woman beyond yourself, beyond desire and reason, beyond your male preferences for youth, beauty and variety and all your superficial concepts of freedom.

We have given ourselves so many choices we have forgotten that true liberation comes from standing in the middle of the soul’s fire and burning through our resistance to Love.

There is one Goddess in every woman. Look into Her eyes and see-really see if she is the one to bring the axe to your head. If not, walk away....right now. Don’t waste time “trying.”

Know that your decision has nothing to do with her because ultimately it’s not with who, but when we choose to surrender.

If you want to change the world… Love a woman. Love her for life - beyond your fear of death, beyond your fear of being manipulated by the Mother inside your head.

Don’t tell her you’re willing to die for her. Say you’re willing to LIVE with her, plant trees with her and watch them grow.

Be her hero by telling her how beautiful she is in her vulnerable majesty, by helping her to remember every day that she IS Goddess through your adoration and devotion.

If you want to change the world… Love a woman in all her faces, through all her seasons and she will heal you of your schizophrenia-your double-mindedness and half-heartedness which keeps your Spirit and body separate-which keeps you alone and always looking outside your Self for something to make your life worth living.

There will always be another woman. Soon the new shiny one will become the old dull one and you’ll grow restless again, trading in women like cars, trading in the Goddess for the latest object of your desire.

Man doesn’t need any more choices. What man needs is a Woman, the Way of the Feminine, of Patience and Compassion, non-seeking, non-doing, of breathing in one place and sinking deep intertwining roots strong enough to hold the Earth together while she shakes off the cement and steel from her skin.

If you want to change the world… Love a woman, just one woman. Love and protect her as if she is the last holy vessel.

Love her through her fear of abandonment which she has been holding for all of humanity.

No, the wound is not hers to heal alone. No, she is not weak in her co-dependence. If you want to change the world…

Love a woman all the way through until she believes you, until her instincts, her visions, her voice, her art, her passion, her wildness have returned to her ...

... until she is a force of Love more powerful than all the political media demons who seek to devalue and destroy her.

If you want to change the world, lay down your causes, your guns and protest signs.

Lay down your inner war, righteous anger and Love a woman…beyond all of your striving for greatness, beyond your tenacious quest for enlightenment.

The holy grail stands before you if you would only take her in your arms and let go of searching for something beyond this intimacy.

What if peace is a dream which can only be re-membered through the heart of the feminine, in man or woman?

What if a man’s Love for Woman, the Way of the Feminine is the key to opening Her (and His) heart?

If you want to change the world…Love a woman to the depths of your shadow, to the highest reaches of your Being, back to the Garden where you first met her,to the gateway of the rainbow realm where you walk through together as Light as One, to the point of no return, to the ends and the beginning of a new Earth..."

To be a man and love a woman like this, she must be the kind of woman that *could* be loved like this.

A woman leading her body, her life with trust, compassion and willingness. A woman that values, honors and allows her vulnerability to be witnessed, plunged into, ravished ... A woman who communicates, stands in her center and opens herself wider, and wider ... and wider, again. She sings her song and dances her dance in full confident feminine expression - And she honors him, his dance, his direction - yet ONLY because she honors her feminine and His masculine purpose NATURALLY fulfills her... "Here" - she knows she is home... -Lisa Citore

Friday, November 23, 2012

The Gap Between Here And There

I am standing in the gap of here and there; a space that solely exists in my mind. 

It is exhausting working this hard to be and stay in love.  No one talks about the work.  The being quiet as to not engage a fight.  The endless and incessant talking about our plans and how to move forward.  Less and less attention to sex and more and more talk. Listening with real attention to hearing and understanding.

There is no other way to real lasting love except through communicating, putting someone before my own shit and extending the olive branch all the time.  It can't always be champagne and chocolate, but that's what we all sign up for. The easy stuff, hot sex, fun times and lots of laughter. We never want to be mean or feel mean. 

I am working through my spoiled bitch undertones.  I am cultivating my inner Goddess.... I want to be loved.  I have to be LOVING! I have learned that there is more to life than just good times.  Man I have seen and experienced my share of mean shit.  So at this point in my life if my heart calls for love, then I gotta be at my best....make my best effort.

I am standing in the gap of here and there. I see where I want to be.  I am standing in the space with open arms overcoming my bullsit and allowing someone to love me.

Love is about allowing. I am  exhaling and letting the love come in and wrap around me.  Of course there is a price....every fucking thing has a price.  What are you willing to do for love?  I am answering with every thought, movement, words spoken, deeds, action; I am answering YES!  I am struggling with the answer of YES with everything!  Because I am used to answering with no with nothing.

This truly is a time of amazing growth, contemplation and love. 

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Happy Thanksgiving! Be Grateful NOW!

I am too concerned with lack.  Too focused on what I don't have that will make my life better.  Crazy.

The life I get to love right now is better than anything I could have imagined!  Where I am and what I have is just right for now.  I am my true love.

I am my true love.  No one compares or comes close to the love I need to give myself. Everything else is just settling for the real thing.  I am the real thing!



Sunday, November 18, 2012

Phillip Phillips - Home - Lyrics

My Beloved has been making his heart my home for so many years...

Hearing this song opens my heart wide for him. Love is daring, big, soaring, courageous, and grounding.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Esperanza Spalding performs Tell Him

Of course I love the the original Lauren Hill version... but this is LUSH.  Smokey...deep and oh so fine scotch.  Just the right mood for a fire and a drink.