Wednesday, December 26, 2012

How I'm Rolling In 2013

I am one for resolutions. I like to set the tone for the year.  I like to have something to hold onto starting the year anew. 2013 is is shaping up as the year of  TEAM BABZ!  Yes.  2013 is the year of running down my dreams.  Opening my arms to love. And being the very best Babz on the planet.

Life is too fucking short to waste on bullshit.  And I do mean bullshit.... like relationships that have me exhausted, tired and just unfulfilled.  I WANT MORE! BETTER! MO' BETTER! So in order to have that, I gotta step up my output.  I gotta put myself in line for all the good things to come my way. I have learned the lessons before me.  I have contemplated my being.  I have welcomed the epiphanies that have often been contrary to what I was holding in my arms.

2013 is the break out year. The year of WINNING!.  The year of VICTORIES!


Monday, December 24, 2012

The Temptations - Silent Night (A Temptations Tribute) 1980

This is my favorite version of Silent Night.  No one has ever done a better job than the Fabulous Temptations!

Wishing everyone a joyous and Merry Christmas!

Friday, December 14, 2012

Holding Connecticut in My Prayers December 14, 2012

My State is mourning today. We have lost our children, our teachers, our friends, neighbors, loved ones.

I have no words to describe my pain. My soul cannot hold this grief. Too many senseless acts of violence that I can't wrap my brain around.  Loss of life, here and abroad pains me deeply.


Sunday, December 9, 2012

Running Towards My Life...Checking My Bullshit

I said I hated running, because I thought I couldn't run.  And when I started to run...and stayed with it, I still wouldn't allow myself to love it.  I was so afraid that I wouldn't be any good at it, or that I was too heavy. I kept saying out loud I hate this, I really hate this, to cover myself when I quit.  You see as long as I kept saying it aloud, then when I do quit those around me would see my point and be in agreement and not challenge my bullshit.

The fear is always in being challenged on my bullshit.  The bullshit is the excuse I use or give that keeps me from whatever I say it is I want, be it running, artistic pursuits, writing a book and falling and being in love.

Running is a right-in-my face-dare-me-to-quit-a-dream-effort.  I have always wanted to be a runner, but didn't dare allow myself the chance to do it.  Oh I tried many years ago and quit. I quit because I had no plan, no goal and no direction to it.  Running is giving me a new way to see my life.  I have accomplished a great deal of things, but I can see where I have quit things and people before I gave them a chance.  I can see the fear.  The thinking was let me give up, before it, they or them quit me.

Bullshit has its own energy, and if not checked will become the way in which decisions in your life will be made.  I see it in mine.

Running is giving me a great gift.  I am seeing my life with new eyes.  The places where I thought I couldn't, running is showing me I can.  This is more than possibility thinking, this is I CAN DO thinking!  I am no stranger to this. The  challenge lies in my intimate self, the deep places that no one sees or has access to.  It is time to give access to the deepest reaches of my heart and mind and soul.  The richness of my life isn't on the surface.  The deep scary places of my soul is where the treasure is.  I have been so afraid to go there my entire life. Now I am running there and there is nothing for me to do but to keep running towards my life. I am checking my bullshit upfront. I am checking my bullshit first.  

The Fear dragon is a formidable foe and God has given me all the tools I need to defeat the fears that seemingly chase me. I am changing directions and running on toward victory!

Thursday, December 6, 2012

Jada Pinket Smith Speaking Truth To Power

My trainer,  Mubarakah Fatologist Ibrahim  posted this on Facebook. I am PROFOUNDLY moved by it.

Jada Pinkett-Smith: “The War on Men Through the Degradation of Woman” -

"How is man to recognize his full self, his full power through the eye’s of an incomplete woman? The woman who has been stripped of Goddess recognition and diminished to a big ass and full breast for physical comfort only. The woman who has been silenced so she may forget her spiritual essence because her words stir too much thought outside of the pleasure space. The woman who has been diminished to covering all that rots inside of her with weaves and red bottom shoes.

I am sure the men, who restructured our societies from cultures that honored woman, had no idea of the outcome. They had no idea that eventually, even men would render themselves empty and longing for meaning, depth and connection.

There is a deep sadness when I witness a man that can’t recognize the emptiness he feels when he objectifies himself as a bank and truly believes he can buy love with things and status. It is painful to witness the betrayal when a woman takes him up on that offer.

He doesn’t recognize that the [creation] of a half woman has contributed to his repressed anger and frustration of feeling he is not enough. He then may love no woman or keep many half women as his prize.

He doesn’t recognize that it’s his submersion in the imbalanced warrior culture, where violence is the means of getting respect and power, as the reason he can break the face of the woman who bore him 4 four children.

When woman is lost, so is man. The truth is, woman is the window to a man’s heart and a man’s heart is the gateway to his soul.

Power and control will NEVER out weigh love.

May we all find our way.