Thursday, June 7, 2007

Marriage Diary: Vol 1 Thursday night

So he is leaving. A great part of me is relieved. And another part is sad. Because I believed in the death do us part, and happily ever after. I thought I knew him, really knew him from my soul. It was a grand affair, a love story that would stand the test of time. But I was wrong. I am wrong. He wants out and I can't figure out why and when did it all go wrong. I certainly can't remember or figure out. Our life seemed good to me. Yes, we have some drama now, but I know this too shall pass. Enough with the whining. I have 4 kids to think about and I have to keep it together. Whatever illusion I was holding onto no longer exists. He wants out and I am obliged to let him go. He is weak and doesn't deserve a woman like me. I am fun, and full of life. I am pretentious and uncommon. So "I say go--walk out the door your not wanted here anymore. Weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye, did you think I'd crumble did you think I would lay down and die --oh no not I , I will survive as along as I know how to love, I'll know I'll stay alive, cause I got all my life to live and all my love to give I WILL SURVIVE"...Gloria Gaynor

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