Saturday, June 16, 2007
Decisions, Decisions, Decisions
Any day now I will be summoned to court to deal with my bankruptcy and foreclosure. Never in my life have I felt so helpless and all alone. I feel like I have exhausted all avenues, I don't know what else to do except wait. I would be fine if I didn't have 4 little kids all under the age of 10. My dear husband has secured housing for himself. So I have an apartment application to fill out and I dread doing it. 1) I hate that I have to give up my house--although I am looking on the bright side--I am starting over. 2) My credit is terrible. and 3) I'll think of that later. My car will be repossessed any day now, BUT I did go out and get a minivan for pennies! I am so proud of myself, no payments all mine! Mind you I have to pray that this baby stays in good shape for awhile. I must say I do feel very calm as though I know things will be alright. I swear I believe it and feel it! I am keeping the faith...that I will make all the right decisions for me and my kids. It's just us now and although my husband proclaims to the heavens that he will help and support, I know he has already proven that he isn't trustworthy, just by virtue of him leaving in the midst of all the drama and uncertainty he leaves. So maybe I have my decision in that area as well. Yep, God's got my back!