I am getting it. The way is becoming clearer. Yesterday I got the news that my sentencing is scheduled for July 26Th. Finally I can begin to get this behind me. As my dearest friend Ron has reminded me: Babz, the clock begins ticking back on that day. So whatever happens there is a definite end point. He is right and I have whole fresh perspective about my now. I am reading a wonderful book On My Own, The Art of Being A Woman Alone, by Florence Falk. I am loving this book. I am seeing my life as my own. I see my future in way that's not completely connected to someone Else's vision that I am now realizing that I have forgotten what it's like to have a bigger dream for myself--my own dream not meshed with someone Else's dream, but my own. This book is like a key to a secret garden...I am happily going in and taking up residence. So today is MY INDEPENDENCE DAY and I am full of hope and happiness. Hell, my future is so bright I have to wear shades-( I know this is very 80's)
Happy Independence Day to YOU.