There are so many people roaming the earth in a great deal of pain and heartache. I am amazed at the amount of pain, drama and heartache people live with everyday. And even more amazing are the lengths people will go to medicate the pain. Eating, drinking, sex, constant drama and my personal favorite, accepting what's in front of you as love when your heart longs for a grander deeper connection. Trying to make unfulfilling relationships into something that they cannot be. Always in need of a band aid but not seeking the cure.
I am not standing in judgement. I know all too well how to band aid pain. How to ignore pain. How to keep on moving forward with a broken heart. We have become so accustomed to pain that we just accept it as a part of how things are. We defend the pain, we nurture the pain, we make room for the pain.
Owning who you are is the beginning of pain emancipation! Doing the necessary work of discernment and authentic self analysis is critical. Who are you? And what do you want? You only get there when you are tired of being on your knees in negotiation with GOD. You only get there when you are tired of begging the night for relief. You only get there when you DECIDE to stop lying and living in mess. You only get there when you are ready to own your life. You only get there when you begin to believe that YOU are magnificent.
Everyone loves to say "there are no do-overs" That you get one chance at life. But I say there are do-overs...EVERYDAY THAT YOU GET is a DO-OVER! What was true and real yesterday does not have to be true and real today. Believe that whatever yesterday brought you, does not have to be owned today. I am not suggesting ignoring realities. I am suggesting that you change your mind about how they affect you. What is your reality and is it bringing you joy this moment? If not?...then why are you accepting it? So this is my internal conversation, my period of discernment. This is my band aid emancipation. I am giving up pain.
WHO ARE YOU? AND WHAT DO YOU WANT?