Sunday, February 17, 2008

IT'S ALWAYS JAZZ SUNDAY: DEACON?...YIKES! YES THAT WOULD BE ME AND POEM #17

A few weeks ago I was approached by my Church to become a Deacon. I was shocked! SHOCKED, STUNNED, AFRAID. When I got the call, it started with "We think you are an amazing woman. We would be honored if you joined us as part of the leadership of the Church" I couldn't believe it. I kept saying: you know this is me? The scandalous and infamous me, right? My Minister reminded me that God Has ALREADY forgiven you, why can't YOU! So I accepted. Yesterday was the Deacon's retreat, there are about 12 of us. It was one of the best days ever. I was so relaxed and so at home and I could feel my spirit singing all day. And after Friday night's crash and burn, Saturday morning was the rainbow. I felt amazingly peaceful and purposeful.

I came home filled with joy. I thanked my estranged husband for taking care of the beanie beans, bid him farewell and took the children out for the remainder of the afternoon. We went to Target, the craft store and then to the bookstore. I was specifically looking for a new bible, the one I have is the one I was given in 1973 when I was baptized in the pentecostal church...yep I need a new bible. Now over the years I have been given bibles--like from college graduation--I went to a HBCU so that is standard practice...but I digress. I picked-up Anne Lamont Bird by Bird and The Message//Remix: Solo and a beautiful journal---I am always buying beautiful journals. I didn't find a bible. I've not talked about my faith specifically, it is very private to me. I am not a pentecostal member, have not been since I was a kid. I am a member of United Church of Christ...you know that very liberal church that Obama is a member of. I have been thinking of going to the Divinity school here. My neighbor is the Dean. I met with them well before I was elected to office and when I was elected I sort of put it away. Then while I was away serving my 29 day sentence, I thought of it again. But did nothing about it. There are a whole series of events that happened, bringing me closer to applying to the Divinity school...becoming a deacon is one such example. There are others. My whole life has been one burning bush after another. So I am listening to God's call and I guess God is like...FINALLY.

Oh and did I mention there were 2 dozen RED roses waiting for me on Saturday when I arrived home with a little I love you balloon! A kind and caring soul wanted me to know that I was loved and to keep my head up. Hey, if anybody is looking for me, I will be on cloud 9 all day!

Lindsay Patterson
BE WARNED

ALTHOUGH
YOU DO NOT LOVE
ME YET
EMOTION HAS
A STRANGE WAY OF
ENTERING THE
NERVOUS SYSTEM
AND CLUTCHING
THE HEART...
NOT VICIOUSLY
YOU UNDERSTAND
BUT VIOLENTLY.

7 comments:

CapCity said...

"So I am listening to God's call and I guess God is like...FINALLY." :-) I'm happy for U, Sis! And I LOVE that book: Bird by Bird.

Lovebabz said...

Sister CapCity,
Someone suggested that I read it. It was actually on my reading list of books to get. I like her a lot. I saw her on Tavis and I thought she was very interesting.

Thanks for sending your happy thoughts my way!

Sharon said...

Who says I don't love you yet?!

I adore that poem! Also, I am so happy that you may have discovered another of your purposes...we all have many you know! My spirit so appreciates yours.

Be blessed.

Mizrepresent said...

Awe girl, i am just so happy for you, in so many ways...i could just feel your joy...thanks for sharing, blessings to you...isn't it spectacular with all our shortcomings, to know and have someone express you are loved...it's the bestest!

Lovebabz said...

Hey Sister Sharon,
I love the way you cheer me on! I need all the love I can get...it is equal to the love I give! And it is definitely coming your!

Lovebabz said...

Dear Miz,
I love your new phot...very glam!
The posibilites for a full life are there, I just have to be open to recieve.

Kit (Keep It Trill) said...

Wow. I can see where that was truly unexpected and validating.