Last year this time I was extremely stressed out. I was facing a ton of things and trying to hold on with everything I had. It is amazing now as I look back, how I was so at the end of my rope. My life had dramatically changed and I felt out of control, lost and hurt. And I had 4 little kids that needed to be taken care of. Every morning I got up I was not happy. I went to bed with death on my mind. How sad to think that I was so consumed with my pain that I was missing out on the real blessings. Luckily and divinely I came to my senses and I learned to be still.
Being still is not easy. When adversity comes our way, our first instinct is to do something...fight back. Try to change the situation with force and will. But I have found that when I go to my knees and I talk with God as my friend, God as the great listener, God as the healer, that sweeping peace comes over me. I cannot imagine being in that sort of turmoil again. If I do find my self facing trouble, I know what to do. I know to walk in truth, be still and look for the blessings hidden underneath.
Pain only last as long as you are willing to allow it to. Moving past pain can be difficult because it grips you, it strangles you and it isolates you. It takes great courage to move on from pain. I have been doing it all my life. I have been moving toward this grand life all of my life. I can see that now. I can see that all is as it should be. All the folks that I have met, all the experiences, all the joy, all the pain, all the laughter, all the tears brought me to this moment. Sitting in the right now of all possibilities. I can do anything. Last year was full of lessons, teaching that nothing lasts forever and all we have is this perfect moment right now.