My childhood abuse at the hands of my father is not a secret. I have talked about it in my role as a support group facilitator in my "Rape Crisis Services" days. I have been interviewed in the media about it. It has been brought up in my sentencing. I have blogged about it, here and at other sites.
It is no longer my secret, or my shame.
What still hurts me is the fact that at this moment as I type there are girls/children being sexually abused in secret...although nothing is ever a secret...someone knows or supsect but remains silent (sigh). What hurts me still is the fact that there isn't enough outrage over these crimes. The R Kelly shit is painful. Painful because folks were outside cheering. Folks bought the video, folks defended his behaviour.
I know what it's like to not be protected. I know what it's like to have people take advantage of you. My father raped me and then sold me to his friends and acquaintances for MONEY! I have worked hard to stand in this space as a free woman, in my right mind and loving. I have not lost my connection to humanity. I have not lost my ability to love. I have not lost my ability to know happiness. I have not lost my spirit to live and live well.
The sexual abuse of children is nasty business. It breaks your spirit, it robs you of your innocence. And for most who survive, they never are whole again. It is hard to overcome. It is hard to get past it. It is hard to accept. It is hard. I am divinely lucky. For whatever reasons, God has delivered me here. I will never forget. What I can do is live a life that is filled with love, laughter, hopes and dreams and good intentions all around. I do.
R Kelly is dangerous, as with ALL child molesters and predators of children, they do not stop. There is no cure. They will continue as long as WE are silent and turn a blind eye. He and others like him will go on and they will do more harm. They will steal and destroy the hearts and souls of children.
Here is a link to a post of a Sister-blogger Kim Pearson over at Blogher on her outrage and call to conscience with links to a petition. Check it out and raise your voice in outrage.