As I said I was going to stop this body hatred. I am stopping this unhealthy feeling about my body. I am going to change my mind about this body and work hard at undoing the negative talk.
I am going to stand naked in my mirror and I am going to tell all the parts of my body that I hate, that I actually love them. The very fat tummy, the very fat thighs. the fat upper arms, the round middle. I am loving it and honoring this body. I will no longer look at these parts in disgust. I will look lovingly over this naked body and be grateful everything works.
I can not be defined by how I look. I have to be defined how I go about the world in love. Living in love. How can I let love rule if I keep running the negative tape in my head about how this body is unattractive. That is not loving. This is conditioning of self-hatred. It starts early and grows and grows and stays with you like a nasty virus. We start the negative talk with "I'll be happy once I lose 20 lbs" "Oh once I drop all this weight then I will be happy" Or we pick ourselves apart because it's easier to do than admire and love our body image. Imagine if we all just said: I LOVE MY BODY without any ifs, ands, or buts. Imagine if we stop comparing our bodies to other bodies., especially to movie stars, singers and video vixens. I am not Vivica Fox, I look more like Jill Scott. I do not look like Mariah Carey, I look more like Monique...you know the full figure comedian.
I am who I am. Now it doesn't mean I don't get out and move this body...I am. It doesn't mean that I eat and drink with abandon...I don't. It means that I change my mind about how I think about how I look. It means that I focus on health and not just weight-loss. It starts with exercising with the mindset that it's good for my heart , good for my lungs, good for overall health.
This is the beginning of loving my body. I must do this. I cannot accept someone else loving this body, making love to me if I do not. I have to come fully into this LOVE. I have to come kindly to myself and to this body.
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