Regardless of where you are on your life's journey you come across situations, people and challenges that can suck you in. I mean suck you in and make you think that pyrite is gold. Yes it's shiny but has no value. All that glitters is definitely not gold.
The illusion of love is like that. All glittery and sparkly...attentive...sexy...seemingly trustworthy and honorable. Someone can say all the right things and touch you in all the right ways but when the shit hits the fan they bail. Sure the excuses are grand and convincing. They have a history of heartache and they never quite trust...whatever. We all got a story.
What I know for sure is the love I need and want has to be equal to the love I give. Not in competition but in truth. I cannot forsake all I want for the shiny pyrite because I think I have struck gold. It's like forcing a big square into a tiny circle, it won't work!
We tell ourselves little lies to stay rooted in mess. We turn off our minds to feel the addiction of false love. We cling to false whispers of love and commitment. We begin to believe the bullshit and can recite it with conviction. Why yes there is evidence of intimacy and good intentions...that's how the game works. That's Pimp Move 101. If you will tolerate the small injustices you will tolerate the bigger ones. If you don't walk away then you are consumed. You stand there tyring to make sense out of the unreasonable. Trying to go over where it all went wrong. Missing the fact that you learned a lesson to move you further to your heart's deep desires. Keep it moving...put the pyrite down and hold out for gold!
Perhaps this is a post about settling for the first shiny thing that comes along. I stand guilty. Perhaps this is a post about seeing the pyrite and trying to pass it off as gold. I stand guilty. Or perhaps this is another life lesson giving me more skills for the road ahead. Still I stand guilty!.
I want the real thing. Not the imitation. Not the fool's gold. The real thing. And I shall have it.