Monday, August 11, 2008

THE SMALL SPACE OF GRACE

I am in the small space. Fear has not creeped in nor has doubt. I am still steps ahead. I am very conscious of my thoughts and I am deliberate in my actions. I am purposeful in speaking lovingly to everyone. I am behaving my way into happiness. I refuse to be afraid of tomorrow. I am refusing to be afraid right now. I am in the small space. The world and all her noise cannot fit in here with me. I am safe.

I find myself in constant prayer, asking GOD for guidance and stillness. Asking GOD for more light, always more light. On my knees not as a beggar, but as someone in awe of the grace I have known thus far. I am Divine. My prayers are slow and deliberate. They are without anxiety. I go to GOD as my friend, expecting the miracles. Expecting the path to be illuminated.

I am not a woman alone. I am a woman of many talents. I am intelligent, smart, charming and daring. This is my in between time, my meantime. What will I do next? What do I want to do?

I am in the small space of grace. It is where I hear my own heart beat and I am grateful to hear it and feel it. The endless lonely nights are not wasted and though I long for the comfort of a lover to lie with, I know that God's love is all encompassing and sustaining. It is the lamp upon my path, the warmth of the sun upon my face. God's grace is the love in me that connects with the world.

In the small space of grace, is where my salvation is nurtured, love is cultivated and the divinity celebrates within in me. This joy proves that I will be alright.

Resuming The 1000 Things I want to Do Before I Die:
70. Build a model dollhouse..complete with lights & furntiure.
71. Cut Off All My Hair* (cut off locs a month ago)
72. Take Ballet Class
73. Drive Across The Golden Gate Bridge* (Thanks Princess Tinybutt)
*Things I have done since I started compiling the list...SMILE.

12 comments:

flutter said...

You are truly inspirational. That dream we talked about today, in email? I think you would ROCK that.

I cannot wait to watch you fly.

KELSO'S NUTS said...

NUTMEG: I've cut off all my hair and driven across the Golden Gate Bridge many times over for both. I'd rate both activities no better than routine.

My list is very short. I want to get a PhD in finance and write a dissertation on the choice between the "certainty equivalent" and "having way the best of it" from mathematical and behavioral standpoints. I want to see my son's college graduation.

Everything else I've wanted to do, I've done more or less. I hate tourism and the outdoors (other than fishing or napping on the beach).

I worked in Madrid for 6 months once and I consider it a point of pride to have gone to either a soccer game or the races every weekend but have never seen the inside of one cathedral!

I have synesthesia in color and shape, so natural beauty is completely lost on me. I love the fine arts but can only tolerate 45 minutes at a museum or gallery before I become overwhelmed by the colors and shapes.

I've done so much business travel in my life, the idea of travelling for no reason is terrifying and if I'm going somewhere it better be luxurious and have very clean bathrooms.

Del's Baby Girl said...

In a word: "beautiful"

Lovebabz said...

Flutter,
Thank you! Now to make the dream a reality. We both will not only fly, BUT SOAR baby!

Hey Kelso,
wWell I cut off my hair and I did drive the Bridge last month!

I am so with you with the luxurious accomdations and very clean bathrooms. It is a quirky thing, but I will spend good money on that.

Hello Del's Baby Girl,
Thank you so much.

Princess Tinybutt said...

i'm with "flutter" sis. and i WILL BE THERE when you take off...

i love you :)

CapCity said...

"God's grace is the love.." 'nuff said! I'm back, Sis! Yesss, God is SOO GOOD!!

Keisha "Kitten" Isaacs said...

"On my knees not as a beggar, but as someone in awe of the grace I have known thus far."


I like that Sistah!....God wants us to praise him...In fact he likes when we pray and start praising in advance...that truly shows faith...and we know it's impossible to please God without faith....I love God sooo much...He is truly awesome isn't He?

Lovebabz said...

Hey Princess,
We all will soar!

Welcome Home Capcity!

Lovebabz said...

Hey Sister Keisha,

Thank you Sister for your spirit and your constant prayers!

LadyLee said...

I tell you, you do know how to say it how it needs to be said.

Okay, I don't know if that makes sense, but you know what I mean.

That was lovely, with a nice soothing poetic tone. Very nice. And there are a ton of affirmations in there. Goodness woman, do you go up into a mountaintop to write every morning?

All I know, I'll be thinking about my "small space of grace". Thanks for that.

Lovebabz said...

Hey Miss Ladylee,

Yes I do indeed know what you mean. And thank you kindly. No there is no "real" mountain...just the things I think about as I try to live this big life. I have seen and done so much that now I have no choice but to look inward for peace, joy and love.

I am grateful that you find anything I have to say of value.

Eb the Celeb said...

I think i might have to make me a serious list of things I want to do before I die