Sunday, October 26, 2008

IT'S ALWAYS JAZZ SUNDAY: JAZZ...WINE...RAIN...

Listening to Patricia Barber...Late Afternoon And You. It's 1:00 am. I am up drinking my favorite Merlot and listening to jazz as the rain dances outside my window. This is definitely making love time. There is something about the force and pounding of rain that immediately puts me in the mood for la amour...

I like thinking that someday I will have a lover. I am not pressed by it. Nor am I anxious. Not like I was this past summer. This past summer I was thinking that if I took a lover then that alone would put some distance between me and my marriage. It does not. Or better still, I can't say really, since I have not made love to another man since my soon-to-be Ex.

So I think of other things. I am happy to think of other things. I do not want a casual liaison. When I do share this body with another soul it will be because I want to... because they are special. I am clear about that. I have to be in love. I HAVE TO BE IN LOVE. And I am not pressed or daunted by not having that right now. I am convinced that I shall.

So this midnight hour I am listening to Jazz and sipping my favorite wine and listening to music that stirs my soul...how divine. The rain is whispering...you shall have what you want...you shall get what you need.

That sits well with me. It is very true as I know my truth to be. I can feel the successes in love and life and living and growing around me for me.

12 comments:

flutter said...

That sits well with me. It is very true as I know my truth to be. I can feel the successes in love and life and living and growing around me for me.


perfect.

Mizrepresent said...

Yes you will lovebabz, it will be going on 3 years since my divorce, and i i'm finally getting what i wanted.

nikki said...

do you and the rest will be done. i'm glad you're enjoying your time with yourself. it's precious.

the prisoner's wife said...

the description of wine, rain, and jazz is just so Love Jones. i might have to go pop in that movie and wax poetic about black love LOL

and i'm SO glad you're back!

CapCity said...

Wasn't that beating rain saxy az HAYL las' nite? Humph! Yea, Sis - life IZ unfolding as it should no matter how much we kick & scream! LOL!

sending cyber hugz!!

Lovebabz said...

Hi Flutter,
I am feeling very different these days.

MizR,
Well Sister then there is hope for me!

Nikki,
I am doing the best me I can!

TPW,
I know, right!...so very Love Jones...LOL!

It is good to be back!

Capcity,
That rain last night was very sensual last night...as if it were trying to tell me something. I know it's crazy but that rain last night was seductive as hell!

Yes all is as it should be.

Sharon because it had to be said! said...

I love reading you....it brings me peace. Considering how chaotic my world has been lately, I have got to figure out how to do it (read you ;) more regularly.

Cheers!

the prisoner's wife said...

babz: i'm watching the movie right now as my rice & peas cooks up! *smile*

Kay C, The Quiet Storm said...

Funny, I was having the same revelation Friday during an all-day storm. I love the rain, and a good glass of wine.

Oh how similar we are! *smiles*

Strange how we think things and actions will make the distance greater. When in fact it is simple healing that makes it better.

Lovebabz said...

Hey Sister Sharon!
I love reading YOU! No stress...read me when you can!

TPW,
You are a true Love Jones FAN! LOL!

Kay C,
I swear that rain was something else! And you are so right! Here's to continued clarity *clink clink*

NoRegrets said...

And someday I'll be under the down comforter with a man when it's raining and dreary outside....

Nice...

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