I hang on to wounds, old hurts and insults longer than I should. I take things personally. Some say perhaps I am insecure. I would say they are probably right. I am not a perfect woman. I don't even pretend to be a perfect woman. What I am is a woman trying to grow into herself.
I have lived and am living a extraordinary life. I have had the privilege of doing a great many incredible things. I have overcome a great many challenges. I am a woman of accomplishment and substance. I am celebrating my successes today. I am looking back at my accomplishments. I don't do that enough I am told. I downplay them as if they are insignificant. They are not. I am proud of the work and the commitment to community.
Over the next few days I will look back as I move forward. Yesterday was a purging day. I released a great deal of anger. I am done with it. I am over it and I am letting go. Really letting go. I WILL not allow another person to devalue my person again. I will not allow it to happen. Love does not hurt. I am not accepting excuses for poor behaviour. I am no longer going to explain away abuse, poor treatment or disrespect. There is no one I will EVER love more than I love my own self. I will never play on a team that does not respect the team, does not know how to be on a team and is only about self.
This blog is my time capsule of my personal development in this time at this moment. I write for myself as I feel the need to do it. I am grateful for the folks that come and celebrate and share and bond with me as I take this journey. This not entertainment for me. It is a snapshot of my life. It ain't always pretty or happy, or lovely but it is as authentic as I can be. Some may not like my truths. Some may not see them as truths. It is hard to see things layed out in print. But as I said this is my domain. This is my comfort zone. I am sharing how I see the world and my place in it.
Today I am celebrating my successes. Tomorrow I will list them.