Friday, September 5, 2008


I hang on to wounds, old hurts and insults longer than I should. I take things personally. Some say perhaps I am insecure. I would say they are probably right. I am not a perfect woman. I don't even pretend to be a perfect woman. What I am is a woman trying to grow into herself.

I have lived and am living a extraordinary life. I have had the privilege of doing a great many incredible things. I have overcome a great many challenges. I am a woman of accomplishment and substance. I am celebrating my successes today. I am looking back at my accomplishments. I don't do that enough I am told. I downplay them as if they are insignificant. They are not. I am proud of the work and the commitment to community.

Over the next few days I will look back as I move forward. Yesterday was a purging day. I released a great deal of anger. I am done with it. I am over it and I am letting go. Really letting go. I WILL not allow another person to devalue my person again. I will not allow it to happen. Love does not hurt. I am not accepting excuses for poor behaviour. I am no longer going to explain away abuse, poor treatment or disrespect. There is no one I will EVER love more than I love my own self. I will never play on a team that does not respect the team, does not know how to be on a team and is only about self.

This blog is my time capsule of my personal development in this time at this moment. I write for myself as I feel the need to do it. I am grateful for the folks that come and celebrate and share and bond with me as I take this journey. This not entertainment for me. It is a snapshot of my life. It ain't always pretty or happy, or lovely but it is as authentic as I can be. Some may not like my truths. Some may not see them as truths. It is hard to see things layed out in print. But as I said this is my domain. This is my comfort zone. I am sharing how I see the world and my place in it.

Today I am celebrating my successes. Tomorrow I will list them.


LadyLee said...

"I will never play on a team that does not respect the team, does not know how to be on a team and is only about self."

Really though.

If I could live by that one truth alone, I could solve 99% of my problems concerning interactions with people in general... just with that right there.

Here's to personal growth, Babz!

Rich said...

As Soul II Soul says, "Back To LIFE!"

clnmike said...

Well said, it's all about personal growth.

Mizrepresent said...

Yes lovebabz we can beat ourselves up on the daily about our shortcomings and never give an ounce of time to how far we've come. Kudo's to you, can't wait for your list.

Pajnstl said...

I found blogging to be tres' therapeutic.

have a good weekend

Torrance Stephens - All-Mi-T said...

time capsul
pls dont burry it under a tree

Lovebabz said...

Hi Sister Ladylee,
We all have out truths to live with. I am glad you found something of value in mine.

You are my big brother!

Hi Clnmike,
I am glad you came back over! Yesterday was tough! LOL!

I have to own the positive accomplishment just as I own the mis-steps and fuck-ups.

Sister Pajnstl,
I agree...very therapeutic!

NOPE! Just right here in the blogosphere!

flutter said...

I adore you, let's celebrate how incredible you are

Lovebabz said...

I think you are marvelous! Let's celebrate US!

Kit (Keep It Trill) said...

"This blog is my time capsule of my personal development..."

Thanks for sharing your insights and inspiration with other.