Wednesday, September 3, 2008

ANYBODY CAN HARM YOU, HURT YOU, KILL YOU...BUT LOVE THAT IS A SCARY THING

I have observed in my own life how much pain and suffering is easily doled out and received. And yet love is often treated like a bad disease. I have noticed in my own life how quick I am to shower myself with scorn and self-loathing. While speaking lovingly seems like a foreign concept.

It is easy to harm, hurt or kill. But it is difficult to love freely and without abandon and fear. Everyone, and I do mean everyone, is guarded and careful and fearful and insecure. No one wants to reach out for another unless they are sure; they are absolutely sure of their feelings. They are absolutely sure that the one they believe they love will not hurt, harm or kill them. But we are never really sure are we. I think Love is about walking on faith. I extend my heart and hand to another. Is there an expectation that the other will do the same? That is the hope.

I am beginning to look at the love in my life right now. Who do I love really? And how do I know? and how do they know? Am I telling and showing all those that I love that I love them? That I love them. How do I know if I am loved? What tells me so? What is my measure? What is my standard?

I am going to explore this for a bit. Because you cannot seek Love if you have no knowledge of love. I want to clearly define what love is for me. For me, I want to define what love is. I don't want to guess or adopt flowery language. I want to define it from my gut and heart and mind and soul and body. I want to walk on faith. Be authentic in my loveships. And sing to the heavens my own love songs.

I know what it is like to be harmed, hurt and threatened to be killed. I know what it's like to harm, hurt and almost kill. I want to know what it is like to fully understand and accept what it means to be loved. Loved as I am in this body, in this mind, in this moment.

8 comments:

Kay C, The Quiet Storm said...

WOW! I agree. Defining love for yourself is a major milestone.

Love can find you and be revealed in so many ways. I hope you keep us updated when you find your definition.

Sending internet hugs...

Peace and Blessings.

LadyLee said...

Well said!

I feel like self-love is the key factor...

sista gp said...

Your love for others should be like your love for God. His love is all-encompassing.

My definition of Love is Peace.

There is no doubt, no insecurities, and no need to be careful.

Mizrepresent said...

Ah yes Lovebabz, i want the same. I guess that is why i am feeling a bit of apprehension about this LOVE thing, although i know with all my heart, it is what i want and deserve!

flutter said...

and you are. Loved.

Who's That Gurl? said...

Lovebabz, you've given me an assignment. I've been thinking about this thing called love for a while. Those are great questions for me to explore too.

This statement alone speaks volumes " I think Love is about walking on faith. I extend my heart and hand to another. Is there an expectation that the other will do the same? That is the hope."

Sharon because it had to be said! said...

I wish you the best on this journey to define love for yourself. Having been on this very journey for most of my life, I have come to just one conclusion and it is that my definition of love changes with each and every single individual I love. The single constant in my own definition is that love in my life must be something I can count on....nothing more and nothing less. For me, that is all love needs to be, whatever else it is.

The Bear Maiden said...

Last year, I wrote a post exploring this same idea..

And you're right. Love is a scary scary thing.