I decided to get up every morning at 4:30am to work out. That's it. No excuses. I set my iPhone to alarm with the sound of harps to peacefully wake me. There is no magic potions. No magic exercises. No magic fairy who will come and wave a magic wand and Abra Ka-dabra I am thin and fit. There is only me, my mindset and sweat. I have decided.
Yes, I have decided many many many times before and I've failed, quit, whined, made excuses, felt sorry, and stayed in this body unhappily. I have stopped looking in mirrors, bought bigger sizes. I stopped looking at myself. I tried to live my life without ever seeing myself. How foolish and sad.
No one has the right answer for how to do this except me. I am designing a plan as I go along. It starts with getting up at 4:30am and sweating. It requires drinking water. Eating sensibly without deprivation and starvation. It requires me to look at myself EVERYDAY! I do believe I love who I am and I need to act accordingly. There is no waiting for this weight to change, move or go away before I live a fabulous life. I am living a fabulous life right now in this size. No one can or will make me feel less than. I will not allow it.
The last 3 days have been amazing. I have gotten up without talking myself out of getting up. When the iPhone alarms it says: GET UP GET MOVING! as the harps play. I am going to write a motivational saying on my bathroom mirror. I am going to be my biggest motivator, cheerleader and FAN!