Here's another light bulb moment: I HAVE OTHER SHIT TO CONCERN MYSELF WITH! Trying to stay in a poor relationship can't be my focus every minute of the day. I have other loves that require...NEED my attention! And you know what? I am going to give it to them!
I am getting up from the relationship table. I am full. I have had enough.
I am going to turn my attention to my dreams, wishes and new reality! I am going to create my new reality! I am going to create the life of my dreams. I will not say that I wasted time. I did what I was supposed to do...I learned some new things about myself. Now its time to turn my attention to the pursuit of happiness! Happiness that is not dependent on someone. I have already started building and crafting and designing my reality and it does not include bullshit, or bullshitters. So pardon me as I no longer give anymore space, thought, discernment on a particular relationship. It's done, we're done. Time to get out of the poppy fields and step into my new reality.
I know who I am! and I know what I want!