Of late, I have been wrestling with confusion in my personal life. This is odd for me because I am always quite clear about what to do and where to go. Even when I am a bit befuddled I can think my way through or feel my way through a situation, crisis, problem. I am gifted with a highly intuitive nature.
My intuition has served me well. I am always feeling things about people, places and things. I trust in what I know and what I feel. I used to be believe it was a freakish duality. But I am realizing that it is not a duality at all. I am not at odds with myself. What I am at odds with is not listening to my instincts and not backing it up with what I think and what I know. GOD has always been the driving force in my life. It is that voice that guides and directs me. Listening to other folks whispering or shouting about what they want, think and need for my life is at best NOISE.
I know GOD has a divine plan for this life... my life. I know that GOD is my friend and I can talk with GOD anytime I want to. I have been doing more of that lately. I am on the right path. If I were not, trust me, GOD would certainly drop a burning bush in front of me. Believe me, I've had many burning bushes. I can however get in my own way and become stuck and stubborn in stepping forward. When I recognize that pattern or better still bad habit. I push myself into prayer and rest.
So last night I went to bed rather early about 10:30pm I was very tired and sleepy. I slept beautifully and thoroughly without interruption or restlessness. I woke up at 6:00am with this strong sense of knowing all shall be well and all shall be well. That what is meant for me will not get past me. I needed that deep sleep to restore and reset my commitment to living my life on my terms.
I woke up with a new commitment to pursue my dreams, love fully and to be open to God's grace. I have some goals I want to accomplish and I am feeling very powerful in finally working on being disciplined. Disciplined in a loving focused staying-true-to me kind of way. I am not troubled in my heart or head. The moments of confusion have past. I see clearly. I am not wearing someone Else's uncertainty. The world is a delightful bright place and I want more of that brightness and joy.
A good night's sleep is restorative and necessary. It is a gift we give ourselves in love and happiness. My charge will be to give the gift of rest to myself every night and wake refreshed with God's grace carrying me forward.