Tuesday, September 18, 2007


Each action and choice, each decision I made brought me to NOW. My first instinct is to strike out against the tide. I wanted to try to change the outcomes by doing something. I wanted to change everything by doing anything. I worried myself sick trying to analyze my way out of my mess. But here comes the grace: I sat still and let the hand of God move me forward. There is grace and divinity in being still. Not spending time trying to figure out every angle, trying to lobby God through prayer. Using prayer as a bargaining tool rather than a tool to center one's self. I learned to be still, to let go and let God. Being still does not mean doing nothing. It doesn't mean allowing your life to spiral out of control. Being still is not being inactive. For me, being still, quieting my mind and tuning out the world's chatter is about turning up the volume to hear God's whisper. Worrying is exhausting and draining and it accomplishes nothing. I caught myself still worrying about this house and I had to force myself back into reminding myself that losing the house is small. And that I will be OK. I am back to being still and that is priceless.


BottleBlonde said...

... trying to lobby God through prayer.

LOVE that statement.

Being still is just.so.difficult for me. How do you do it?! I'm so used to doing all the talking (praying), that I forget to do what's most important - LISTENING to God (via meditation).

Piecake said...

I find your blog so uplifting. Thank you for another great post.

Lovebabz said...

Thanks Bottleblonde and piecake.
I am learning about prayer. All of my life I have used prayer as a tool to beg for something, Now I am learning it is a tool to listen.

laurie said...

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Refinedone said...

Be still my Sis...

Just found you blog ...will be back.

I leave you with this...stay strong and blessed!

...The victory is in the battle.
The victory is in the storms of life, for it rages to lift you up!
So child….
Be still!! Be still!! Be still!! Child
For the battle is MINE! (says the Lord), for you to know, that I am the I am.(so be it)