Friday, September 21, 2007

FAITH FORWARD FRIDAY: KEEPING MY EYES ON THE PRIZE

I am not thinking too much about my self-surrender date. I have been focusing on other things. There is no reason to agonize over going to prison. That will take care of itself--all I have to do is show up. I am however thinking about November 1st and what I will need to do to pack up this house. Yes, I am still sorrowful about losing my house--but again there is nothing I can do, it will take care of itself. I am focusing on my future and thinking about all the things I want to accomplish. I am keeping my eye on the prize--an old civil rights saying. Keeping my eyes on the prize and holding on! I am looking at my children more closely and trying to hug them more without freaking them out. Today is my son's birthday--and he was supposed to take cupcakes to school to share with his class, but the last couple of days he has been acting out--so I took away his cupcakes. I told him the other day "Gregory, you are not keeping your eyes on the prize" He got it, but still did his own thing--which got him into trouble. Anyway, that's where I am today, trying to imagine my life after Oct 30Th and you know it looks pretty good in spite of...well everything.

6 comments:

BottleBlonde said...

Well, I certainly hope that you will blog about your October experience. I'm excited to see how much stronger you're going to be when you're outta there and in your new house.

laurie said...

You have so much on your plate right now...
And your kids have a great mom.

alto artist said...

I just discovered your blog a few weeks ago--count me as another person who greatly admires your strength and faith, and knows the future will bring wonderful things for you.

--aa.

Lovebabz said...

I have been commanded by my sister Lo and my best friend Ron to keep a journal for the 30 days I am away. So of course I will share all my experiences to the best of my ability. Yes, I do have a lot on my plate---I always have. I can't remember a time when there was absolutely nothing going on--that would be a dream indeed.

stanaxe said...

When you think you are alone you not. I was once locked up for contempt of court, a guy who had been in and out so often he didnt know if he was coming or going, gave me this advice on my first night; I found it applies to life as well; loosely translated, dont eat head; try to forget whats going on in your head, and focus on what you are doing in the now.

Lovebabz said...

Ah Stan sugar, what ever do you mean don't eat head? What? I am going to a Women's prison. I appreciate the rest of the post though. Sound advice.