"I don't think being truly human has any place for guilt...Contrition, yes, but guilt no. Contrition means you tell God you are sorry and you're not going to do it again and you start off afresh. All the damage you've done to yourself [is] put right. Guilt means you go on and on belaboring and having emotions and beating your breast and being ego-fixated. Guilt is a trap. People love guilt because they feel if they suffer enough guilt, they'll make up for what they've done, whereas, in fact, they're just sitting in a puddle and splashing. Contrition, you move forward. It's over. You are willing to forego the pleasure of guilt." ...Sister Wendy Beckett as told to Bill Moyer, taken for the book The Surrendered Wife, by Laura Doyle.
I found this passage profoundly moving and divinely directed to me. It is no accident that I came across this passage this week.... I finish federal probation this week. I served 29 days in federal prison camp, 5 months house arrest/confinement and 3 years supervised release...probation. It is time to let go of the guilt and for the last 3 years I couldn't let it go. This passage illuminates my path toward letting go. This is the week I let it all go and truly move on from it. No longer hiding in shame. No longer beating myself up. I am worthy of being in this world and enjoying this life.