I can feel the wolves at the door. I can feel the magnitude of my life weighing unduly heavy. It is these moments where I must summon all my faith. Be still and listen for God's directive. I am not afraid... I can see how I can be afraid. There is so much at stake. I don't have the luxury of whining abut how tough it is. It is what it is. I have to keep my head straight. I have children who depend on me to provide. I depend on me. Opting out is not an option.
First comes the test...then the lesson. This is how I believe God works sometimes.
So here I am standing in the same place of uncertainty, lack and self-pity. The big difference is I am not accepting any of it. I am not allowing any of the negative vibes to take hold in my spirit. I am refusing to feel sad, hopeless and depressed. All is not lost. It may feel like it, but then again feelings can be illusion. THIS IS MY TEST: What will I do in the face of enormous challenges?
There are good things just up ahead and that's the direction I am going. THAT'S THE LESSON! Move in the direction of the blessings. Forward.