Thursday, October 7, 2010

FIRST THE TEST...THEN THE LESSON

I can feel the wolves at the door.  I can feel the magnitude of my life weighing unduly heavy.  It is these moments where I must summon all my faith.  Be still and listen for God's directive.  I am not afraid...  I can see how I can be afraid.  There is so much at stake.  I don't have the luxury of whining abut how tough it is.  It is what it is. I have to keep my head straight.  I have children who depend on me to provide.  I depend on me.  Opting out is not an option.

First comes the test...then the lesson.  This is how I believe God works sometimes. 

So here I am standing in the same place of uncertainty, lack and self-pity.  The big difference is I am not accepting any of it.  I am not allowing any of the negative vibes to take hold in my spirit. I am refusing to feel sad, hopeless and depressed.  All is not lost.  It may feel like it, but then again feelings can be illusion.  THIS IS MY TEST: What will I do in the face of enormous challenges? 

There are good things just up ahead and that's the direction I am going. THAT'S THE LESSON! Move in the direction of the blessings. Forward.