What am I willing to leave behind? This question goes beyond this Season of Lent. This is truly a life changing question that is perhaps the foundation for any change that I make moving forward.
Whether its old habits, toxic and stagnant relationships, or mundane average thinking. What am I willing to leave behind? Can I be truly be honest with choosing the things that I must let go of in order to live free? I have done a great deal of self-analysis over the years on this blog. I have dissected myself for the world to see, but even with some of that, I have been hard-pressed to let go of all the things that keep me stuck.
Truth-telling is hard work. Standing in my mirror and really looking into my heart and mind is no easy task. I can easily be too harsh, or go too easy. I can see what I want to see or I can focus on the worst parts. There has to be a balance and for me, getting to the balance is the biggest challenge.
This Season of Lent I am committed to asking what am I willing to leave behind in order to begin anew? What can I let go of and never return to? This simple Christian question is a life question indeed. Perhaps this is my age old question underneath all the other self-awareness questions that beg me to answer... Who am I and what do I want? Maybe the question moving forward is Who am I to God...in God and what does God want for me? Is this an aha moment? I am thinking so. I am feeling like this moves me into a different direction away from thinking about me alone, and into thinking of myself as a community. Hhmm, will save this thought for another post.
I am taking to prayer today, the overarching question of what am I willing to leave behind? I need divine guidance on this. I don't want to hastily rattle off a list of things I think I could let go of. I want to move as God would have me move.