I just feel like I want to keep talking. I want to say everything that's on my mind and in my heart. Maybe I am feeling the need to talk so much because it's Spring and my birthday is coming and I want to get all the mess out of the way so I can just enjoy my day.
Maybe, I am stuck. Maybe I am like Dorothy at the crossroads...which way Toto, which way? And believe me I have a cast of characters in my life to push and pull me down the yellow brick road. Some days I like being pushed. Sometimes I even liked being pulled. These days I don't like being pushed or pulled and maybe that's why I am so uughhh.
Maybe I am wandering. Maybe I am longing for something I can't quite put my finger on. Maybe I am just too much in my own head and not enough in doing. Or maybe I am doing too much and not enough in my head. Either way, I am out of balance...out of focus. Maybe it's because it's Spring and my birthday is coming. I love my birthday. However I have no real plans yet. There is a strong desire to just disappear and be anywhere but here. Maybe I could steal a few hours to myself. Maybe I could just get on the train and ride until... well I stop somewhere.
Maybe maybe maybe.
I love the flowers blooming. I can see the peonies on my front lawn pushing up. The hydrangea is budding and of course the roses are starting to get leaves. Is it possible to want too much and not really know what the too much is?