Wednesday, January 14, 2009

MY WORTH

With age comes wisdom...I hope...I pray! I do know that at 45 I see the world very differently than I did at 25 and 35. I know my 20's was all about discovery and learning about relationships and racing from one club to the next. My 30's were all about thinking about being connected. Career development and upward mobility.

Now that I am on the other side of 40 and loving it. I know what I am worth. I know what I can tolerate and stand. The last 2 years were tough. My marriage ended...my finances were a mess. I was in danger of losing my home and I felt alone. But I persevered. Persevered on my own steam. I dug in and trusted myself to get through to the next day.

Standing in my own skin I know damn well I cannot tolerate foolishness and mayhem...thanks Princess Tinybutt! I cannot go back to questionable relationships. Not knowing how someone feels about me. I am not going back to chasing or questioning someone intentions towards me. If you are not clear...certain...direct...forthright...or Grown I am not messing with you. I am not entertaining future involvements nor am I wasting my time.

I know my worth.

I would rather be alone than to be entangled with someone who is not sure...or afraid...or has other unfinished relationship drama. See I am a Grown Woman...not easily intimidated by anyone. I am a woman of heart and mind and I do not have the patience for Men who pretend to be men but really have way too many insecurities...excuses...or just lack integrity.

There is a big world out there and I want to be in! And if I have to be in it as a Single woman...I say BRING IT ON!

At the end of the day living the life I want is my priority. I am happy. I am in command of my senses. I am on a path that I am excited about. My worth shows in my step and smile and in the love that radiates from within.

I know my worth and the Brother that sees that will know it too.

13 comments:

The3rdofThree said...

I love the strength in your words.

Currently I am on a similar path when it comes to my professional life. Knowing my worth as I pursue an alternate career path has been difficult. The confidence I have always had in my abilities is not as strong, which is a new feeling/experience for me.

On that note, I know I must shake the feeling off and take a stand. I KNOW I can be anything I want to be AND I KNOW I will be good at it. And now isn't the time to falter in my belief in myself.

Thanks for your words. They are a source of motivation.

Kay C, The Quiet Storm said...

Yes, Yes, YES!!!! I so needed to hear that today (but you knew that didn't you?)

Sometimes you have to keep reminding yourself that you made it through the rough times stronger, wiser and a better person for it.

Keep that positive energy my sister, let it resonate and rub off to make more positive energy.

Peace and Blessings,

Sheliza said...

great attitude and mindset. I feel your life can be what you want it to be if you are strong willed and you know your worth. Took me a long time to learn that but now I am doing life and loving it! God bless :)

Sista GP said...

Moving forward to your Luscious Life, I see you are.

LadyLee said...

Really though.

Say that, Babz!!

So nice, I read it twice!

Jimmy said...

I am feeling this post.

You are so strong, and know what you want.

That is what I like in a woman.

TRUTHZ said...

well alright.. forward movement.. ain't life grand when you can look back and reflect and measure your growth

MzTeeJaye said...

I love your self reflection..you are so courageous to let the world see you and not sugarcoat anything..I'm reading and taking notes...

Aunt Jackie said...

you make being a woman look so damn fun sometimes.

enjoy your life lady, you are worth that and more!

Danie said...

Today was the day I needed to hear those words...keep speaking your truth....

Don't Be a Slut said...

God knows I can relate. During my 20's, I gave all my power (and a whole lot more) away to men. In my 30's, I've embraced being single. I've come to the conclusion that I'd rather have a good relationship with myself than a bad relationship with someone else.

Princess Tinybutt said...

LIVE these words sister. sending you love and strength, warrior queen.

Amber-Alert said...

luv the last paragraph...im learning early!! i must do me at all times and if that means that i remain single then so be it...im ok with that!!