I can feel the shift in how I am beginning to feel and see about my life. I am stepping into more of myself than ever before. It is Day 8 of this changing of my mind. I have worked out for 8 days straight. I have spoken lovely to everyone most of the time (smile) and I am quick to get past negative thoughts that seem to come out of nowhere. Most of the time though, the negative talk shows up when I get an idea in my head to do a particular thing. BAM! the negative talk starts with needling and then whining and then fear. It is not satisfied until you give up that competing interest and do nothing. Somehow I am learning to turn it all off. I am growing and I love it!
Oh I am so far away from where I think nirvana is for me. I am also less fearful these days. I have the same woes, but I am looking at them differently or better still I am handling things differently. I am more protecting of my spirit...I am learning to protect my spirit. I have no idea where I am going specifically.
I mean I have dreams and hopes and wishes. I am working on projects that I am excited about. This new found excitement is the result of E.N.D.= ENTIRELY NEW DIRECTION. It is a new direction that I can create based on what I need at this time in my life. It's not about what anyone suggests for me, but clearly about what I need in my life right now. So I am exploring this new path.