I can feel the shift in how I am beginning to feel and see about my life. I am stepping into more of myself than ever before. It is Day 8 of this changing of my mind. I have worked out for 8 days straight. I have spoken lovely to everyone most of the time (smile) and I am quick to get past negative thoughts that seem to come out of nowhere. Most of the time though, the negative talk shows up when I get an idea in my head to do a particular thing. BAM! the negative talk starts with needling and then whining and then fear. It is not satisfied until you give up that competing interest and do nothing. Somehow I am learning to turn it all off. I am growing and I love it!
Oh I am so far away from where I think nirvana is for me. I am also less fearful these days. I have the same woes, but I am looking at them differently or better still I am handling things differently. I am more protecting of my spirit...I am learning to protect my spirit. I have no idea where I am going specifically.
I mean I have dreams and hopes and wishes. I am working on projects that I am excited about. This new found excitement is the result of E.N.D.= ENTIRELY NEW DIRECTION. It is a new direction that I can create based on what I need at this time in my life. It's not about what anyone suggests for me, but clearly about what I need in my life right now. So I am exploring this new path.
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Have fun on the new path.
I am on a new path also, I hear what you mean about the negative self talk turning into a nagging ache in my head, and then the whining, and then the self loathing, before the fear sets in again. I am slowly learning to see all of this for what it is, and check the negative ish at the door before it takes root inside my head. Once I am able to tackle the negativity as soon as it comes up, then I think I will be on my way to a new me.
Great post today!
Spirit protection, while still keeping its doors wide to new possibilities seems an excellent place to be (on what? Day Nine of your path), my Sista. Keep going, keep growing!
Nirvana awaits!
*smiles*
SJ!
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LoveBabz. You are forever an inspiration. You got a shot-out in my last post...
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