I am using this sacred time to change some patterns of behavior and thinking that for years have driven my decision making. I am finally accepting the fact I can't change other people's behaviors. I have no power to fix anybody. We all must carry our own cross and lay it down. It is not my role or call to carry someone else's cross. I cannot cajole, manipulate, or shame anyone into making decisions about their life that are acceptable to me. I can't do that kind of heavy lifting anymore. And most importantly I gotta let go of the expectation of how I want someone else's life to be lived.
This sacred time is all about preparation for the risen Christ. How does that play out in my life? How do I lay my burdens down and come to the world renewed and reborn. This is my journey. This is my charge.
Change is all around me... my body... my weight... my life. I am not afraid, I am embracing the possibilities. This is indeed preparation for the best life possible. Laying down my cross in all areas. Deciding instead to dwell in the mystical garden of love.