I feel this kind of examination needs its own blog. It's own place where it does not have to compete with the day-to-day
I find myself calm and peaceful in some areas of my life. In other areas I am unglued.... banshee-esque. I want to have a peaceful life where the world does not wear me down. I want to live a peaceful life where I am not moved by the mess of other people's lives. I am not talking about being removed, remote, reserved. Maybe it has nothing to do at all with other people.
My struggle is with God and about my walk with God as my friend and redeemer. The real struggle is with moving in that direction and away from the trappings of the world... all the material shit that I covet, hoard and just like looking at, dreaming about and lusting after. Maybe this is where spiritual maturity begins, owning my materialistic desires and deciding that they carry no more weight.
My faith walk toward God is becoming very important to me. It is growing in me and I am allowing it take root.
So I am sure a blog is coming. I can feel it. This one here will always be my baby. My heart is calling for something more.