Monday, August 9, 2010

TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY AGAIN

I am not a quitter.  Oh, I do know how to walk the hell away from people, places and things that do not uplift my spirit or bring joy to my life.  However, I am not a quitter.  If I know I didn't give something my all, then I regroup, recharge and come at it again. Sometimes it takes a gazillion tries to get to a real sense of accomplishment.  I am cool with that.  My strength lies in my tenacity.  I am not afraid of much in this world. 

My fears are a different story.  They, (my fears) as I said many times on this blog are seductive.  They woo me like a desperate lover.  It takes a great deal of courage to shush the voices of negative thinking and talk out of one's environment.  I am courageous.  I am fearless on so many levels.  I like my inner grace.  I am resolute in my vision for my life.  I am not afraid to try, try, try, try, try again.

I am standing in the place of Try Again saving my house, saving my loveship, saving money, saving my peace of mind.  The difference in this moment is the sense of all shall be well.  I do not feel anxious or discouraged.  I feel empowered and steadfast.  I love this feeling.  I feel like I am climbing Mount Everest again with success as my goal.  It doesn't matter that I've been here before at base camp.  I learned a few things from the last time I attempted this climb.  You see that's the gift!  Not that I am back at base camp, but that I am back trying again with more tools and more support and more confidence than ever before.

I am not a quitter.  I will always try, try, try, try.  try again.

6 comments:

Moanerplicity said...

Question(s) About Fears:

As 'seductive' as they are... are they making LOVE to you, or simply fucking you in a painful place?

What's the profit in them?

Do they make you happy to be nappy, or make you dread the unknowable?

Are they paying your rent or costing you more for your constant investment in them?

Are they fulfulling you... or keeping you from Living Life OUTLOUD?


*ponder*



Snatch JOY!

One.

Luv said...

life is a journey and sometimes we see things one way and then get another point in that journey and get a different perspective which forces us to go back and try.. and it's nothing wrong with that.. there is no shame in trying...

i am here rooting you on in your journey... keep trying until it is right for you

Kay C, The Quiet Storm said...

Keep trying until you know you are a point of walking away, if walking away is an option.

I am cheering for you no matter what path you walk. I do say try, try, try but I also say know when to say when. Sometimes, with people who feel so much and want so much it is the walk away part we have difficulty with.

Everything in God's time, not our own.

(((HUGS)))

Princess Tinybutt said...

go, go, go, go, GOOOOOOOOOW!!!

you can do whatever the heaven you want.

:)

鄭雅雯 said...

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Mizrepresent said...

A line from one of favorite poems, "rest if you must, but don't you quit". I live by that, and this, "Bend but don't break". This speaks to my heart, soul and faith.