Monday, December 8, 2008

LACK & ABUNDANCE AND THE GROWN UP CHRISTMAS LIST

I sat in Church Sunday a bit overwhelmed...to tears. I felt overwhelmed because I was feeling like I didn't have much. I was unsure about what I was going to do about Christmas, about meals for next week about lunch for the children. Bills that have to be paid. On and on and on. I felt like I was on a deserted island with no hope of being rescued. Fears of lack was setting in. and I could feel myself feeling inadequate. I could feel myself doubting my ability to handle things.

A good cry is cleansing. My fighting spirit returned and I changed my mind from thinking lack to thinking abundance. I have so much. I cannot measure abundance with money. I cannot measure abundance with things, trinkets, gadgets. I have to see that I have what I need. And that what is needed will come. Worrying about what I do not have is pointless and disrespectful to what I do have. Celebrating what I do have is divine. I am in my home, the lights are on, the phones are on, there is food in the cabinets, I have running water. My children are not hungry. We are warm and safe. There is nothing better than that.

This is the season of miracles, magic and love. Reminding me that I have the power to set my own destiny and create my own reality. This is the time to look inward and trust that I have what I need to move my family forward. Finding lack in our lives is easy, we are used to focusing on what we don't have. Finding abundance is divine. It forces you to look with an appreciative eye and bowed head. I am keeping the faith and fully aware of the blessings I graciously enjoy. It is abundance that calls to me...in living...in caring...in loving.

MY GROWN-UP CHRISTMAS WISH LIST 13-20
Dear Santa,

I WANT:
  • Boundless Sunny Days
  • Sexy Rainy Days
  • A new cordless Drill with extensive drill bits
  • Cool & Funky Socks
  • Hats...vintage & new
  • A Laptop/notebook
  • A Soaking Tub

11 comments:

MsKnowitAll said...

It's about wanting what you already have and giving thanks for it all.

A good cry is like rain, definitely cleansing - giving your heart and mind focus.

I want some sexy rainy days myself!

Monique said...

PRaise God, Praise God, Praise God! Whew! This post touched and moved me girl. Touched and moved me, ya hear? I needed to read this.

clnmike said...

Very good post.

Somebodies Friend said...

Thank you Lovebabz,

This is exactly what I needed to read tonight, it's been one of those days for me.

But I feel much better tonight then I did when I woke up.

flutter said...

soaking tub, Yum.

Moanerplicity said...

I want a little bit of want YOU want for you... & yes, even for myself.

You have a beautiful spirit, my Sista!

One.

Mizrepresent said...

Ah yes, it is great to realize how RICH we really are. It's funny, my brother just said that to me the other day...saying we are very rich, in family, in love, in joy...and then my dude said the same thing...telling his mother, that i was very rich in heart and you know what lovebabz, so are you!

TRUTHZ said...

and always remember, God will deliver not always when we want be always on time.

i read this and had to chuckle..seemed like this was my season a year ago.. when i tell you the cupboard was bare... it looked like i had just moved in instead of like i had been living there for 5 plus years...

but MY Child never went hungry, even if i did.. so my blessing was that my child always had something in his belly becuz i think i would have started dropping it like it was hot if it was any other way.

stay prayful

Hawa Bond said...

It must be something in the water... or perhaps the holidays looming over our heads. I had my own recent bout with what I named "Hopeless Resignation." A comment came through that I am far from alone.

I have really been weighing the value of the intangible (and even some tangible) gifts that God gave me, and the conclusion is always the same: I don't have a thing to be blue about.

Thanks for sharing!

Hawa, author of
Fackin Truth Blog (Personal Blog)
and
Cleanse Master Remix (Health Blog)

msladydeborah said...

Hi,
I know you are on vacation. I listened to your radio broadcast and decided to add my wishes to your post.

1. I want to use my talents, gifts and time wisely.

2. Age with as much grace and wisdom as possible.

3. Find a new job that will make me happy.

4. Have ample opportunities to explore and discover new things.

5. Be the owner of a capable mind and body.

caratime2 said...

for some reason i never seem to be able to comment on your blog without some technical snafu occuring. that's all right, it does me good to read and react to what you write, and the positive vibes from me reach you on some level or another, even if not in written form.

my original response to this post also was lost, so all i will write now is: "Preach, girl!"