In Order To Lead A Fascinating life....

The Stuff That Dreams Are Made Of - Carly Simon

Take a look around now
Change the direction
Adjust the tuning
Try a new translation
Don't look at your man in the same old way
Take a new picture
Just because you don't see shooting stars
Doesn't mean it isn't perfect
Can't you see...

It's the stuff that dreams are made of
It's the slow and steady fire
It's the stuff that dreams are made of
It's your heart and soul's desire
It's the stuff that dreams are made of

So what's this about your best friend?
She's got a brand new shiny boy
And they're moving out to Malibu
To play with all his pretty toys
And you feel closed in by the same four walls
The same old conversation
With the same old guy you've know for years
But use your imagination
And you will see....

It's the stuff that dreams are made of
It's the slow and steady fire
It's the stuff that dreams are made of
It's your heart and soul's desire
It's the stuff that dreams are made of

What if the Prince on the horse in your fairytale
Is right here in disguise
And what if the stars you've been reaching so high for
Are shining in his eyes

Don't look at yourself in the same old way
Take another picture
Shoot the stars off in your own backyard
Don't look any further
And you will see
It's the stuff that dreams are made of....

Yes. You Will Find Him Next To Me. (Emeli Sandé - Next To Me)

You won't find him drinking at the tables
rolling dice and staying out til 3
you won't ever find him being unfaithful
you will find him, you'll find him next to me

You won't find him trying to chase the devil
for money, fame, for power, out of grief
you won't ever find him where the rest go
you will find him, you'll find him next to me

Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
You will find him, you'll find him next to me

When the money's spent and all my friends have vanished
and I can't seem to find no help or love for free
I know there's no need for me to panic
cause i'll find him, i'll find him next to me

When the skies are grey and all the doors are closing
and the rising pressure makes it hard to breathe
well, all I need is a hand to stop the tears from falling

I will find him, will find him next to me

Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
You will find him, you'll find him next to me

When the end has come and buildings falling down fast
when we spoilt the land and dried up all the sea
when everyone has lost their heads around us
you will find him you'll find him next to me

Never in my life have I met someone like him
I'm blown away by his love for me
if you ever wonder where it is you'll find him
you will find him, you will find him next to me

Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
You will find him, you'll find him next to me

Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
You will find him, you'll find him next to me

Emeli Sandé - Next To Me

Beyond Love Comtemplation

I want the kind of love that endures, and uplifts.  I want the stuff legends are made of.  I cannot get that kind of love by wishing for it or simply daydreaming about it.  I have to be intentional and committed in my steps and actions.  I can't just pray it, I have to live it.

Love is a verb.  Love is doing and being.  Love requires movement. Love of self, of life, of everything on the planet and perhaps beyond.  God loves me and there is noting I need to do but breathe.  The other part of God's love is my call to love as God loves me.  Intentionally.  Without judgement, without conditions, without barriers.  The delight and liberation is in the call to love. The delight is divine, being in God's presence.  Love  is being in God's presence.  Loving everything puts me in God's presence.

There is a clarity about Love and the call to Love that is hard to articulate.  This clarity calls me to be and do, rather than contemplate.  I have moved beyond the love contemplative stage. Not because I am wise or all-knowing, but because I can see what love calls me to be and do.  That's it.

God is speaking.  I am listening.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY: Motherhood as Ministry...

Everything is becoming ministry in my life.  Thinking this way allows me to fully hold the things dear as sacred... like marriage... friendships and motherhood.

I am a MOTHER, a mom, a Big Mama.  When any child calls mommy I respond.  That's just the deal.  I accept it and I actually dig it on a lot of levels.  There are days when I feel supremely equipped, and then there are days when I am overwhelmed and totally unprepared.  But never do I ever consider quitting.  Getting away, yes! Longer summer camp, Yes!  Being their Mom, that's my lifetime commitment.

Every time I hear about abuse stories involving children my first thought is thank God my children are safe with me.  I know where they are and they are well cared for.  I don't dwell on what their life stories could have been like had we not adopted them.  I like to believe that God put them where they needed to be... to save my life.

Motherhood as ministry is not some nice sentiment, it is about understanding the power and responsibility I have for raising socially conscious, kind, smart and loving people. It is knowing that all that I have I give to them for their betterment and growth.  Being a mother is being fearless. It is going against all kinds of odds to ensure my kids get what they need.  I am a village builder, a bread-winner, chief bottle washer.  And more than anything I love it to my core.

Oh yes, I am excited about them flying the nest and creating the life of their dreams as I did for myself.  I will not be the mother that will clip their wings to keep them close.  I want them to bounce around the world and make friends across continents. The world is truly theirs and I want them to fall in love in it.

Motherhood as ministry is a calling of the highest order.  A sacred call that many answer.  The call is different for each person.  Some are called to be the vessels, others the nurturers, others the lesson, and still others to be the safe haven and sometimes one may be called to be it all.  I know what my call was and is ... to be a safe haven. 

I believe I am. I am a safe have for my children.  That is my ministry.

Happy Mother's Day!

The Body of My Dreams.... Yes, It's a Woman Crush Alright

Wendy Ida has my dream body.  And I am going to work hard to create that for myself.  She is my motivation.  She is 61 years old. I am not even going to nail myself to the cross about how good she looks at that age as opposed how not so great I look at 50.  I ain't never looked that good at any age.  So this is my muse... my inspiration... my holy grail.  No I don't want to be her.  I am inspired by her fitness.  I love the way her body looks.  This is is what I am striving for.

2 Days into being 50 and I am Feeling FABULOUS!

What a great start to kicking off 50!  I am feeling pretty damn good!

I feel so youthful and spirited.  I truly feel like the world is my pearl!  I am a Queen!

Today I am celebrating with family and friends!  Turning 50 is a big deal and I am glad I chose to celebrate with  gusto!

I don't know about tomorrow... right now I am feeling very blessed, very rich and very happy.

Yes.  Very HAPPY!

Today is My 50th Birthday!