I don't imagine I'll make it to 100 years, but who knows medical technology is ever evolving and new cures are discovered daily. With that being said, there is a confidence at 50 that I've always had but only now I can fully embrace without fear of hurting feelings. I mean what I say and say what I mean And I expect that from other people. The urgency to get ahead, make friends and be nice are no longer my priorities.
I do not feel guilty for my pleasure. I do not hang around people who feel guilty about the the things that bring them pleasure. I don not hang around people who won't even entertain their pleasures.
When I say no, I mean no.
I don't feel compelled to show up to stuff that I don't want to show up at.
I no longer do meetings. Give me a task and a deadline and that's it.
I go my own way. I am not moved by popular culture or what's "In".
I don't care if everyone's doing it.... If I am not interested I am not doing it.
I am excited by my own company. I don't need a posse, a wingman, or a sidekick. I can sit at any bar anywhere in the world and feel absolutely at home.
I like my body. I love the way clothes fit my body. I am done hating myself for not being the me of my 20s.
I plan my do-nothing days and I am proud of that.
The sense of urgency I feel is all about being more of myself at 50 than I have ever been. It's about moving toward my dreams and making things happen for myself. I realize that I no longer seek the approval of my circle to chase my dreams, all I want is their support. And If I don't get it or have it, I still press on.
I am more me at 50 and I find that quite profound. I feel very much on the right path... minus a few bumps and glitches. That's life, always changing, always giving me something new to ponder and experience. Corny indeed, but oh so authentic. I am more me at 50 than I have ever been and I love it.