Saturday, August 31, 2013

More Me At 50

I don't imagine I'll make it to 100 years, but who knows medical technology is ever evolving and new cures are discovered daily.  With that being said, there is a confidence at 50 that I've always had but only now I can fully embrace without fear of hurting feelings.  I mean what I say and say what I mean And I expect that from other people.  The urgency to get ahead, make friends and be nice  are no longer my priorities.

I do not feel guilty for my pleasure.  I do not hang around people who feel guilty about the the things that bring them pleasure.  I don not hang around people who won't even entertain their pleasures.

When I say no, I mean no.

I don't feel compelled to show up to stuff that I don't want to show up at.

I no longer do meetings.  Give me a task and a deadline and that's it.

I go my own way.  I am not moved by popular culture or what's "In".

I don't care if everyone's doing it....  If I am not interested I am not doing it.

I am excited by my own company.  I don't need a posse, a wingman, or a sidekick.  I can sit at any bar anywhere in the world and feel absolutely at home.

I like my body.  I love the way clothes fit my body.  I am done hating myself for not being the me of my 20s.

I plan my do-nothing days and I am proud of that.

The sense of urgency I feel is all about being more of myself at 50 than I have ever been.  It's about moving toward my dreams and making things happen for myself.  I realize that I no longer seek the approval of my circle to chase my dreams, all I want is their support. And If I don't get it or have it, I still press on.

I am more me at 50 and I find that quite profound.  I feel very much on the right path... minus a few bumps and glitches.  That's life, always changing, always giving me something new to ponder and experience.  Corny indeed, but oh so authentic.  I am more me at 50 than I have ever been and I love it.


2 comments:

Moanerplicity said...

Methinks becoming 50 hath brought thou new volumes of inner peace & wisdom.

Coolness!

SJ!

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Big Mark 243 said...

... it is about embracing the life you have, not the life you wished for... congratulations..!