TIS THE SEASON! ...Resolution Countdown 2012

I am LAZY.  Seriously.  Lazy. And I procrastinate.  I have all these great ideas and then I sit on them.  Sometimes I write them down in lovely journals.  Each time I swear I am going to follow up...follow through...complete...finish.  And what happens NOTHING!

This isn't a beat down post on myself.  This is a confession.  A real truth telling.  This is being naked.  I am LAZY.  I procrastinate.  I am watching my life go by like I am a spectator in the stands.  I have started more projects and finished so few. Weight-loss programs, plans, diets. Organization plans, De-cluttering, eat better, moderation in all things.

I am still afraid.  I am still self doubting.  I cast my vote against myself.  I keep waiting for the right moment.  I want someone else to come and rescue me.  I am waiting for a fairy God-mother.  I need pixie dust.  I live for the fantasy because my real life is shit.  This is where I am living in the realm of fear, self-doubt and cowardliness.  It is exhausting. 

DUH! I know better when I look at it...my life that is.  I realize that I must constantly remind myself of what I want to do and move toward it.  Wallowing gets me nowhere.  I am at the age where my friends and folks I know are dying off. I am 48 and that is close to 50.  I gotta get on my grind and make my life what I want and need it to be.  More joy, love, peace and happiness doesn't happen by wishing.  Action! Doing it! Just Do It! That's got to be the constant drive.

I had way too many epiphanies.  I have accomplished a lot. I know what love is.  I can't afford to forget where I've been.  Tis the Season of miracles and I am the miracle! I am going into 2012 with a jump start attitude of getting it done and it starts today!

So here's my first resolution:

1. I am done with being lazy and procrastinating. What I need to get done I will get done PRONTO! No more putting off for later, or getting around to it. NOW!