HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2012 IS ALREADY FABULOUS!

2012 IS THE YEAR I FLY!

Happy Kwanzaa - Teddy Pendergrass

Happy Kwanzaa! Enjoy all the best of this holiday season!

I have to admit I had no idea Mr. Teddy Pendergrass made a Kwanzaa song. I love it! Enjoy!

The Temptations Silent Night

The Temptations are my FAVORITE Group! Their version of Silent Night is the definitive version as far as I am concerned!

MERRY MERRY! HAPPY HAPPY!

My Favorite Book Of The Moment: Brothers(& Me) By Donna Britt

I LOVE LOVE LOVE this book!  If you are looking for a great gift to give a Sister (other women too) this would be a great one to get!  It is a memoir and a book on tapping into your own self analysis.

I had the pleasure of chatting with her on LoveTALK...see my blogtalk button on the right and take a listen.

Brothers ( & Me) A Memoir of Loving and Giving is a rich story of love, forgiveness and reflection. Get it, give it and LOVE IT!

Donna Britt

Mariah Carey ** All I Want For Christmas Is You ** LIVE

I am so in the Christmas mood! I love this song! I never tire of hearing it! Dear Santa, you know what I want!

Resolution Countdown 2012: Creative Expression

I love artistic expression, however you wouldn't know it because there is never any time to sit and color, or paint, or make collages or anything.  I am always rushing here and there.  I am always shuttling children from this place to that place.  By the time I end my day, all I want to do is be still.

I have to manage my time to get in the things I deem important to my overall well-being.  I gotta get my art on!  I am no artist by any stretch of the imagination (or maybe I am...we are what we say we are), and I am moved by creating something uniquely mine.  There is something very liberating about creating something by letting my imagination have free reign.  I have over the years built up a nice treasure trove of art stuff... pencils, paint, brushes, markers, paper and crafting materials.  I am ready.  I have created some pieces that I think are FABULOUS!  Now if only I had more time to make them and perfect them.

My resolution for 2012 is to pursue more artistic expression.  To make time to sit and craft and make things purely for art.  Purely to satisfy my inner artist's desire.  2012 is the year I am going to balance responsibilities with whimsical pursuits of fancy.  Meaning all work and no play makes Babz DULL! 

The landscape of my life calls me to look out further...beyond the horizon.  I have always known the kind of woman I want to become, she is coming into focus as the years fly by.  It is astounding to me, the sound of my own voice and the beat of my heart.  It is time to go my own way.  I am in deed an artist and my life is my canvas.

Resolution Countdown 2012: Commitment

Commitment.  Truly one of the areas of my life that could use some shoring up. There are a few weak points in my commitment to the things I say I want.  I say that I am committed to a certain thing (insert... diet, exercise, loveship, friendships, de-cluttering, world peace)  and yet I fall short to staying the course.

Is it the fear of success?  No. I think the fear is what if I put in all the effort and there are no results and everyone will know that I failed.  How is this thinking possible?  I mean I know better, but there is a little piece of me deep down that holds onto this. What if I do all this hard work and nothing happens...zilch...nada...zero!  Intellectually I know this is not true, because any effort yields some result.

I have done this work of excavating old woulds, and past hurts. It seems I  haven't dug deep enough. I have to hold my commitments sacred. My commitments have to be my divine priority. My commitments must become part of my road map for my life.  Where am I going? What do I want? Who am I?  These questions are all connected. Can't just answer one without answering the others.

I am going into 2012 fully free in my heart, mind and spirit.  These early resolutions are my traveling bags for the new year.  I am making the effort to purge the negative energy, thoughts and behaviors that keep me from greater personal success.

Resolution 2012: Hold my commitments sacred.  Allow myself room to move in different directions as needed and as God would direct.  Believe that any and all effort toward my goals will yield success.  Accepting success as uniquely personal and of my own definition and not the world's.

TIS THE SEASON! ...Resolution Countdown 2012

I am LAZY.  Seriously.  Lazy. And I procrastinate.  I have all these great ideas and then I sit on them.  Sometimes I write them down in lovely journals.  Each time I swear I am going to follow up...follow through...complete...finish.  And what happens NOTHING!

This isn't a beat down post on myself.  This is a confession.  A real truth telling.  This is being naked.  I am LAZY.  I procrastinate.  I am watching my life go by like I am a spectator in the stands.  I have started more projects and finished so few. Weight-loss programs, plans, diets. Organization plans, De-cluttering, eat better, moderation in all things.

I am still afraid.  I am still self doubting.  I cast my vote against myself.  I keep waiting for the right moment.  I want someone else to come and rescue me.  I am waiting for a fairy God-mother.  I need pixie dust.  I live for the fantasy because my real life is shit.  This is where I am living in the realm of fear, self-doubt and cowardliness.  It is exhausting. 

DUH! I know better when I look at it...my life that is.  I realize that I must constantly remind myself of what I want to do and move toward it.  Wallowing gets me nowhere.  I am at the age where my friends and folks I know are dying off. I am 48 and that is close to 50.  I gotta get on my grind and make my life what I want and need it to be.  More joy, love, peace and happiness doesn't happen by wishing.  Action! Doing it! Just Do It! That's got to be the constant drive.

I had way too many epiphanies.  I have accomplished a lot. I know what love is.  I can't afford to forget where I've been.  Tis the Season of miracles and I am the miracle! I am going into 2012 with a jump start attitude of getting it done and it starts today!

So here's my first resolution:

1. I am done with being lazy and procrastinating. What I need to get done I will get done PRONTO! No more putting off for later, or getting around to it. NOW!

The Fight || World AIDS Day

I worked for an AIDS Project in the early days of the epidemic...late 80's early 90's. I started out as a volunteer because I heard someone speaking at a rally, and they said what will you say when you are asked what did you do to help? That moved me to action. I delivered meals to people with HIV/AIDS. I eventually became the director of volunteer services for my local AIDS Project. It will be for me always GOD's work.

What will you say when you are asked someday what did you do in the face of all this ignorance and dying?

Be a blessing. VOLUNTEER.