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Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Monday, March 9, 2009
MY LENTEN JOURNEY: EMBRACING THIS MOMENT OF SOLITUDE & REFLECTION
There is something to being connected to the seasons. Being connected in a very organic kind of way. I spent the winter making stews, and soups and biscuits and cornbread. But now I feel the need for salads and lighter fish fare. Spring is coming!
Off with the old and on with the new. Yes the new. I have to let go of things that are not for me really. No matter how I wish them to be. Wishing doesn't make it so. These are definitely prayerful days. I am feeling very brave and very open. I do not know what tomorrow holds for me. I know what I want and I am summoning the courage to move in that direction. There are worries to contend with. I am beating them back as I said that I would, not giving in to the negative talk or thinking. This Lenten Journey is showing me that I have a creative spirit and spiritual nature. I call upon those strengths to move me further on my journey.
Letting go means to release myself from old hurts and complicated relationships. I am done with complicated matters. I want simplicity and serenity. I don't want to be ruled by the news of the day. I want peace and laughter and joy and good meals and wine!
So here I am looking out the window watching the snow and rain mix falling. I feel alone and lonely but not sad. I am feeling hopeful and prayerful that all my hearts desires' shall manifest in my big life. I am embracing this moment of solitude and aloness. Taking this time to reflect on where am I exactly? And what do I see?
I am embracing this moment of solitude and reflection. Standing fully in this moment awaiting Spring and shortly letting go of Winter. I've got more to discern as I walk this lonely road.
Ad Maiorem Dei Gloriam
Off with the old and on with the new. Yes the new. I have to let go of things that are not for me really. No matter how I wish them to be. Wishing doesn't make it so. These are definitely prayerful days. I am feeling very brave and very open. I do not know what tomorrow holds for me. I know what I want and I am summoning the courage to move in that direction. There are worries to contend with. I am beating them back as I said that I would, not giving in to the negative talk or thinking. This Lenten Journey is showing me that I have a creative spirit and spiritual nature. I call upon those strengths to move me further on my journey.
Letting go means to release myself from old hurts and complicated relationships. I am done with complicated matters. I want simplicity and serenity. I don't want to be ruled by the news of the day. I want peace and laughter and joy and good meals and wine!
So here I am looking out the window watching the snow and rain mix falling. I feel alone and lonely but not sad. I am feeling hopeful and prayerful that all my hearts desires' shall manifest in my big life. I am embracing this moment of solitude and aloness. Taking this time to reflect on where am I exactly? And what do I see?
I am embracing this moment of solitude and reflection. Standing fully in this moment awaiting Spring and shortly letting go of Winter. I've got more to discern as I walk this lonely road.
Ad Maiorem Dei Gloriam
Sunday, March 8, 2009
MY LENTEN JOURNEY: LOVE NEED
If my beloved stood face to face to me and said plainly and clearly I love you, how would I feel? What would I do? And could I happily and confidently say it back? HHmmm....
Words and deeds are the evidence of love. When we want to express our feelings we act accordingly. Those who are courageous enough to give and take love, sing its joys to the heavens. The rest of the not-so-courageous sit longing for the moment when love will find them.
We put up so many barriers to love that it is a wonder that a beloved could get up close enough to sing out I LOVE YOU! So many of us say we want love but then we erect massive walls and mazes to keep love from getting in. We say he's too this or that or she is lacking this or that. We do it without even realizing that we are focusing on the topical, the esoteric, the benign. We never look at someone's heart and mind. We never pay attention to their intentions. We ignore the soul. I suspect we are missing out on love all the time. Yes, we want what we think we want and we ignore the pull of the need.
What do I need? This Lenten Journey is asking me to ask myself. You cannot create, art, life, love without asking what is needed. I believe what is needed will come, but I have to understand that need is divine. Not a weakness. Not a character flaw. Not an admission of not having enough. To need someone is to say that I am open to and welcome companionship, support and love on this life journey.
Creativity and spirituality meet not in some distant place, but here on earth with me and my beloved connected and in sync with ourselves and the love we create. Yes. Creating love born out of what is needed...desired and wanted.
It requires a different thought process around falling in love and being in love. It is intimacy without all the drama of sexual intercourse. We have learned to remove intimacy from sex. We have learned to remove love from sex. I am thinking I need to connect the two. This is where I need to go and think how this might work in this life. This is the point where I begin to be honest with my needs. There is something to this thought process. There is something calling me in this regard. It is a deep rooted need I suspect, to be truly connected to my beloved.
Illumination is good.
Ad Maiorem Dei Gloriam.
Words and deeds are the evidence of love. When we want to express our feelings we act accordingly. Those who are courageous enough to give and take love, sing its joys to the heavens. The rest of the not-so-courageous sit longing for the moment when love will find them.
We put up so many barriers to love that it is a wonder that a beloved could get up close enough to sing out I LOVE YOU! So many of us say we want love but then we erect massive walls and mazes to keep love from getting in. We say he's too this or that or she is lacking this or that. We do it without even realizing that we are focusing on the topical, the esoteric, the benign. We never look at someone's heart and mind. We never pay attention to their intentions. We ignore the soul. I suspect we are missing out on love all the time. Yes, we want what we think we want and we ignore the pull of the need.
What do I need? This Lenten Journey is asking me to ask myself. You cannot create, art, life, love without asking what is needed. I believe what is needed will come, but I have to understand that need is divine. Not a weakness. Not a character flaw. Not an admission of not having enough. To need someone is to say that I am open to and welcome companionship, support and love on this life journey.
Creativity and spirituality meet not in some distant place, but here on earth with me and my beloved connected and in sync with ourselves and the love we create. Yes. Creating love born out of what is needed...desired and wanted.
It requires a different thought process around falling in love and being in love. It is intimacy without all the drama of sexual intercourse. We have learned to remove intimacy from sex. We have learned to remove love from sex. I am thinking I need to connect the two. This is where I need to go and think how this might work in this life. This is the point where I begin to be honest with my needs. There is something to this thought process. There is something calling me in this regard. It is a deep rooted need I suspect, to be truly connected to my beloved.
Illumination is good.
Ad Maiorem Dei Gloriam.
Friday, March 6, 2009
MY LENTEN JOURNEY: EMBRACING THE FEMININE
There is a real softness developing in me. An unexpected delight. I can feel myself becoming more womanly, more in tuned with a vulnerability that ordinarily would have been lost with all that I have come through these last several years. My pending divorce has not made me bitter. The unfortunate events of the last several years have not made me hard. Yes, I am strong and fearless where I need to be. But something else too...a softness...a willingness to yield.
As I move further into embracing my creativity and spirituality I cannot ignore my femininity. I am re-defining my womaness. I am not talking about roles. It goes deeper than that. It is for me about knowing what I need and being open to it. Using this Lenten journey to reflect on what it means to be a woman open for love is all a part of discovering my creative self. Creativity, spirituality and femininity are intertwined, each drawing strength from the other.
Understanding and embracing my femininity is critical as I welcome this season of dating and connecting with men. Knowing who I am at my core affirms my choice in a partner, lover, husband. I want to be a woman. Yielding, gracious, strong, beautiful, loving, kind, creative, spiritual.
Ad Maiorem Dei Glorian
As I move further into embracing my creativity and spirituality I cannot ignore my femininity. I am re-defining my womaness. I am not talking about roles. It goes deeper than that. It is for me about knowing what I need and being open to it. Using this Lenten journey to reflect on what it means to be a woman open for love is all a part of discovering my creative self. Creativity, spirituality and femininity are intertwined, each drawing strength from the other.
Understanding and embracing my femininity is critical as I welcome this season of dating and connecting with men. Knowing who I am at my core affirms my choice in a partner, lover, husband. I want to be a woman. Yielding, gracious, strong, beautiful, loving, kind, creative, spiritual.
Ad Maiorem Dei Glorian
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
MY LENTEN JOURNEY: LENTEN COMMITMENT 2009
As I step into the space of creativity and spirituality during this Lenten Season I am whole heartedly embracing my church's Lenten Commitment 2009.
During the season of Lent, 2009,
I commit to giving a gift to God, the church, my household,
community and world
by making space and time in my life to explore the
creative spirit within me.
I promise to spend time in prayer and listening as
I imagine and create.
I promise to be open to discovering new creative instincts and gifts.
I promise to persevere when the project is difficult or my creativity feels blocked.
I promise to follow new ideas where they lead me
without fear or judgement.
I commit to share this journey with atleast on
other person at church, and to be open to the
possibility of sharing my project and/or
conversation about it with the whole congregation
at the end of the Lenten season.
Ad Maiorem Dei Gloriam
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
MY LENTEN JOURNEY: NOT PERFECTION
Each of us assembles our own set of jurors. We imagine "Them" and "They" withholding permission to live our best lives. We act as if "They" & "Them" have more power and control over ourselves. We stop ourselves from stepping out on faith because everything is not perfect. All the ducks aren't lined up in a row. We think we don't have all that we need to create. We believe there is always something left to do, get, claim, acquire, achieve in order for us to reach perfection. Sometimes we are striving for perfection even when we don't know it. We unwittingly put up road blocks and obstacles in our way. We spend way too much time conferring with the jurors...real or imagined. The what is escapes us and puts us at odds with our divinity. When we don't accept the what is, we are not present or connected to who and where we are right now.
In these days of Lent I am relinquishing the drive for perfection and I am surrendering to the what is. And I will create in that space of what is. Otherwise I will never tap the creative divinity that longs for my full attention. As long as I think I do not have enough to create, I will not create. I have to use the tools and talents divinely given to me already. I have to work in the space that is provided today...right now. Waiting to create in perfection is fear.
Ad Maiorem Dei Gloriam
In these days of Lent I am relinquishing the drive for perfection and I am surrendering to the what is. And I will create in that space of what is. Otherwise I will never tap the creative divinity that longs for my full attention. As long as I think I do not have enough to create, I will not create. I have to use the tools and talents divinely given to me already. I have to work in the space that is provided today...right now. Waiting to create in perfection is fear.
Ad Maiorem Dei Gloriam
Monday, March 2, 2009
LENTEN JOURNEY: AD MAIOREM DEI GLORIAM
As I discern my Lenten Journey. I am feeling the real pull of my creative nature. The universe is laying before me a path to create my way into abundance. Yes, create my way into my very best self. Yesterday in our Adult Forum at Church we sat to brainstorm our Lenten Journey. Discussing our link between spirituality and creativity. It was an amazing time. This moment that I am in is an amazing time.
I am truly seeing that in difficult times if we are open, our creativity can be the answer to all the prayers to ease fear, lack and discontent. It is our moments of creative expression and thought that are the answered prayers. Not creativity as art and artistic expression alone. But thinking creatively about all things. It is allowing the divinity to lead and direct and open me in ways that I couldn't not see because of fear and lack. It is about lifting my skills up for the glory of God. For the greater glory of God. It is trusting that I have enough to live the life divinely given to me.
My final divorce date is this month. I received the letter from court on Thursday. All the old fears and anxiety came rushing back, can I make it on my own, can I raise my children, can I make a living. It is the end of the END. It is a finality that still hurts. But what I have come to realize and learn in prayer and meditation that there is more for me to do down the road. That this relationship ends, there are many more fruitful relationships awaiting my attention. The greatest one being my relationship with myself and the divinity within.
So my Lenten Journey is so appropriate as I move forward. This is my time to tap into my long buried creative spirit. To shish the nay saying voices and step out on faith. To hear only my voice strong. To follow the light of the divine. To be fearless.
Someone read my tarot cards for me. No this does not put me at odds with my faith. I rather like the mysticism of ancient tarot cards. The 7 Of Swords was drawn. This card speaks to self-created fears. The 7 of swords asks us to look at the ways in which we are limiting ourselves through the terrors of our own imaginations. It asks us to recognise what it is that prevents us from realizing our dreams and inspirations.
And then, this card asks us to open our eyes and see things as they really are. Not scary and dangerous after all, but full of possibility and hope. It is then that are able to take action!
I am taking action! I am stepping fully into my creative self. I am clearing my mind of unnecessary clutter of doubt, fear and lack. The universe is speaking. GOD is speaking. It is on me to hear and heed.
Ad maiorem dei gloriam
I am truly seeing that in difficult times if we are open, our creativity can be the answer to all the prayers to ease fear, lack and discontent. It is our moments of creative expression and thought that are the answered prayers. Not creativity as art and artistic expression alone. But thinking creatively about all things. It is allowing the divinity to lead and direct and open me in ways that I couldn't not see because of fear and lack. It is about lifting my skills up for the glory of God. For the greater glory of God. It is trusting that I have enough to live the life divinely given to me.
My final divorce date is this month. I received the letter from court on Thursday. All the old fears and anxiety came rushing back, can I make it on my own, can I raise my children, can I make a living. It is the end of the END. It is a finality that still hurts. But what I have come to realize and learn in prayer and meditation that there is more for me to do down the road. That this relationship ends, there are many more fruitful relationships awaiting my attention. The greatest one being my relationship with myself and the divinity within.
So my Lenten Journey is so appropriate as I move forward. This is my time to tap into my long buried creative spirit. To shish the nay saying voices and step out on faith. To hear only my voice strong. To follow the light of the divine. To be fearless.
Someone read my tarot cards for me. No this does not put me at odds with my faith. I rather like the mysticism of ancient tarot cards. The 7 Of Swords was drawn. This card speaks to self-created fears. The 7 of swords asks us to look at the ways in which we are limiting ourselves through the terrors of our own imaginations. It asks us to recognise what it is that prevents us from realizing our dreams and inspirations.
And then, this card asks us to open our eyes and see things as they really are. Not scary and dangerous after all, but full of possibility and hope. It is then that are able to take action!
I am taking action! I am stepping fully into my creative self. I am clearing my mind of unnecessary clutter of doubt, fear and lack. The universe is speaking. GOD is speaking. It is on me to hear and heed.
Ad maiorem dei gloriam
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