TANGO SUEÑO...TANGO LESSON #1

Last night was my first tango lesson...Argentine style. I was thrilled. Nervous. Excited. Ready. It was hard physically and intellectually. Physically, I don't have good balance--I am in poor physical shape. Intellectually it was was hard because as a woman you have to surrender the impulse to lead...take over.

Tango requires trust. Absolute trust. Willingness to be led. Even if your partner isn't strong you have to follow. Hhmm this was HARD. My first impulse is to correct. Takeover. Lead.

As we were switching partners throughout the class, I noticed very clearly that when I had a strong partner I was a better partner. I was more able to allow my partner to lead and I take the cues and follow. But when my partner was weak, I was weak and it was hard to stay focused and get our bearings. I could feel frustration setting in.

Tango is already teaching me something more than the art of walking. It is teaching me the art of surrendering. Trusting. And doing it all with grace and passion.

I am convinced that the Divine is using the Tango to teach me more about who I am and what I want.

SHUT UP OPRAH!

Let me start by saying I LOVE Oprah! There is no one better on daytime TV. She has done a great deal of good in the world. But I am sick and tired of her whining about her weight!

I am sick and tired of whining about my weight too! The time I use up on this planet worrying about weight issues...when to eat...what to eat..how to eat and knowing full well there are people starving...not a continent away...but here in my city. Really this is about perspective. This is about having TOO MUCH! I have wasted time crying and fretting and losing sleep about being round...being fat...being anything other than happy. Do I really believe I would be happier thinner? Do I really believe all my problems stem from being fat? Come on. If a man loves me...he loves me...in this body...not some body in the future. But here's the real deal...I GOTTA LOVE ME IN THIS BODY...NOW!

Yes, having high blood pressure is a very dangerous and serious thing. But If I came at this weight loss issue from a health perspective and not a vanity perspective then this problem is managed and or eradicated. See I am really really really sick of thinking and whining and plotting and planning about dieting. So I am just going to eat less...move more that's it! Periodically I will post where I am in my progress over the next year. I am joining the likes of my new found blog sister, Leslie J. Ansley, The Daily Crouton who is tracking her weight loss for a year. She is inspiring!

So Shut Up Oprah about your weight. Deal with what's really underneath your weight gain and be happy. Damn.