An Extraordinary Life Examined. Notes and views on being an EX-Wife, Mother, Felon and Citizen of the world. This is my personal journey of how I am moving forward with grace and tenderness.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
BIRTHDAY WISHES: A PLACE IN THE SUN, EASY LIKE SUNDAY MORNING, THERE'S HOPE
My blogging Soror Pserendipity dedicated Easy Like Sunday Morning
My Kindred Spirit and Sister Traveller Kay C, The Quiet Storm dedicated India.Aire There's Hope.
Like a long lonely stream
I keep runnin' towardas a dream
Movin' on, movin' on
Like a branch on a tree
I keep reachin' to be free
Movin' on, movin' on.
'Cause there's a place in the sun
Where there's hope for ev'ryone
Where my poor restless heart's gotta run.
There's a place in the sun
And before my life is done
Got to find me a place in the sun.
Like an old dusty road
I get weary from the load.
Movin' on, movin' on
Like this tired troubled earth
I've been rollin' since my birth
Movin' on, movin' on
'Cause there's a place in the sun
Where there's hope for ev'ryone
Where my poor restless heart's gotta run.
There's a place in the sun
And before my life is done
Got to find me a place in the sun.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
BIRTHDAY WISHES: BIRD ALONE & LOVETALK RADIO
Bird Alone - Abbey Lincoln
Monday, May 4, 2009
BIRTHDAY WISHES: BRAVEBIRD
Bravebird - Amel Larrieux
In a land far away where the sun doesn't spare a soul
And a twisted tradition has a girl in a strangle hold
Lies a desert with the footprints
Of little girls with a secret
Of a pain
That you and i could never know
Little feet running fast as they can like a bird in flight
Through the days of sand with a fire in the sky
And through indigo nights
She runs away from a life spent
Being witness to other unwilling participants
Of a pain
That you and i will never know
Your a bravebird
Of the rarest kind
You may be one of the walking wounded
But still you fly
Your a bravebird
You put yourself on the line
When you shared your secret with the world
You saved another mothers child as she speaks you can tell that
The words are not easy to say
The hold the power to transport her back to that impossible day
But she hasn't any regrets
Cuz' she won't become a woman with a secret
Of a pain
That you and i could never know
You and i could never know
You and i could never know
You're a bravebird...... a bravebird.....fly high.....In the sky.....there you are
Sunday, May 3, 2009
BIRTHDAY WISHES! SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL REMAINS
THANKS TO MY BEAUTIFUL BLOG SISTA GP FOR THIS:
You are an inspiration to overcome battles in life. No matter what has happened, you are determined to not let it tear you down. You are creating your own future in the manner that fits you best, not what others claim they know. At the end of each phase you've conquered, something more beautiful emerges and remain.
Happy Birthday Sister-Cuz,
Much love,
Sista GP
Something Beautiful Remains - Tina Turner
Saturday, May 2, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME: THE VIRTUAL COOKOUT!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
I have partied all over the world on this day. I have danced on more bars than I care to recall. I have hugged more porcelain Goddesses than I care to talk about. I have shutdown more clubs than anyone could disclose. I have woken up with men who I couldn't pick out of a line-up...I HAVE PARTIED HONEY....HEARTY!
TODAY IS ABOUT FAMILY CELEBRATIONS...LOUNGING...QUIET AND RESTORATION.
THANK YOU TO LADYLEE...THE ORIGINAL OLD GIRL WHO CRAFTED THE MOST BEAUTIFUL CRIMSON & CREAM AFGHAN EVER! NOT ONLY THAT, BUT SHE PERSONALIZED A JOURNAL FOR ME TOO! AND SENT ME HOME MADE COOKIES THAT MY KIDS DEVOURED!
THE SONGS THAT HAVE BEEN SHARED WILL BE UP!. THANKS TO ALL WHO TOOK THE TIME TO THINK AND SHARE SONGS THAT EXPRESSED MY SPIRIT!
THERE IS A VIRTUAL COOK OUT AT LADYLEE...THE ORIGINAL OLD GIRL; THE ARTIST WHO CRAFTED THE AFGHAN!
ALL THE SONG DEDICATIONS WILL BE POSTED LATER!
THANK YOU PRINCESS TINY BUTT FOR THE ASSORTED ROSES! THANK YOU TO THE ANNOYMOUS GIVER OF THE TULIPS AND YELLOW ROSES!
THANK YOU JB FOR COORDINATING THE BREAKFAST PARTY WITH THE CHILDREN!
Friday, May 1, 2009
TOMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
MY HEART...LIZZ WRIGHT
My heart my head my mind my soul My feelings over you
My tears my touch remember all that I am to you
My heart my mind my soulMy feelings over you
My tears my touch remember all that I am
When you're gonna pick up the phone and call me
Tell me I can come overI got my ticket and my bags are packed
My coat is hangin' over my shoulder
Time is passing and it's getting late
This heart of mine just can't wait
And after all that we've been through
I maybe get there and I'll give it to you baby
My heart my head my mind my soul
My feelings over you
My tears my touch remember all that I am to you
My heart my mind my soul My feelings over you
My tears my touch remember all that I am
Standing by the window and lookin' out
My heart is turning I want to shout
You're complicated I don't want to complain
The way you're acting can you explain
Why all this love is wasted on you
Can I live with all that is you
You say you love me silence I can't hear
All I want is to be near you baby
My heart my head my mind my soul
My feelings over you
My tears my touch remember all that I am to you
My heart my mind my soul
My feelings over you
My tears my touch remember all that I am
I'm looking for a reason to stay true
Looking for our loveLooking at me and looking at you
And even if I could turn away and then
I see that I'm falling in love again
Some times I wanna give you up
Some times I want to leave you alone
Some times I want to run away
And some times I want you to come back home
Come home to me yeah yeah baby
I know I know you'll be good for me
Come home come home
Yeah babyI'm right here babyCome home to me
Yes I'm right here babyYeah all I am to you
I know you feel me baby
Yeah yeah
Come on come on
Home to me
BIRTHDAY COUNTDOWN
MAY 2ND...SATURDAY IS MY BIRTHDAY
I WANT SONGS, LYRICS AND LINKS TO SONGS
COME CELEBRATE WITH ME
EMAIL: lovebabz@gmail.com
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
TRUE LOVE TUESDAY: LEAVING THE PIECES ON THE FLOOR...
Monday, April 27, 2009
LIFE TRANSITIONING...
It is those moments that hurt the most. The fears that pull me in with comforting thoughts of do nothing...be nothing...sit and wait...waste time. And me in my perceived wounded state agrees and surrenders to the madness of self pity and doubt.
When I am not FOCUSED ON MYSELF...the world can hurt me. People can hurt me. When I am not steadfast in my faith that I am DIVINE...the world can hurt me. People can hurt me. Sometimes the knife comes and you don't even feel it until its way too late. But its never to late to get hold of your senses.
It is clear to me that I am transitioning again...changing...grown a bit more. Each time this happens old wounds rear their ugly head and I can feel self-pity and doubt arrive ready to party. It is not that I haven't learned any lessons...I have. I believe these old wounds are opening up because it is time to heal them for good. I've gotten new tools and now its time to call them forth. I believe that I am about to step into more of myself. That my dreams of long of ago are just within reach. That this is another example of shedding old to make way for the new. This one thought saves me.
I have been brave all of my life. I have endured much. I believe my humanity remains in tact and that I truly love deeply. I am happiest when I am in love with the world rather than at odds with it. There is a new path ahead and I am steadfast in blazing forward. There is no choice but to follow the will of God. I hear it assuredly as I hear my children call my name.
This truly is a life in transition.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
IT'S ALWAYS JAZZ SUNDAY: UNCHARTED WATERS
Things catch me off guard all the time...as if I am unprepared for the shit that people do. Each time that I am hurt it is like the first time ever. I am not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing. You would think I would be more protective of my heart. I am not. So I get wounded. The wounds affect my willingness to be intimate and be open and welcoming. This is the side affect of a wounded heart and spirit. Its not about being on guard it is about becoming unwelcoming. Each hurt pulls me further and further away from a welcoming heart. Love waits on welcome...not on time
So here I am living this life. Noticing that I need to be kinder to myself and to give myself a break...but at the same time I need to push myself beyond the mundane and the moderate. I am not living as grandly as I like. I am not chasing the day. I am still controlled by fear and what-ifs and lack. Self doubt is commanding a strong offense and I am feeling helpless in my defense.
I am fearful and afraid. I have tools to combat this. I am summoning all my courage and all my self preserving tools. The eternal optimist in me loves to win and is not going to go without a fight. I have a fighting spirit. I know how to climb hills and mountains.
So this week I am creating a life strategy that I am launching for my birthday. I am reading and discerning and meditating and praying as I am about to turn this ship of a life in a new direction...uncharted waters.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
LET THE BIRTHDAY COUNTDOWN BEGIN: I WANT
My birthday is May 2nd! I will be 46 year's old! If you missed last year's festivities check the older posts...It was AMAZING! My blog fam graced me with poetry...finely crafted poetry. All moving and BEAUTIFUL! My intention is to bind them all into a personal book. Yes you can do that so easily these days.
This year I've got gifts coming..handcrafted gifts from bloggers who I adore and who have said we want to give you something special next year...well Baby its next year!
My birthday is a big deal...like Christmas and Valentine's day. I LOVE LOVE LOVE marking the passage of time. So what do I want this year? HHHMMM How about...MUSIC!
I WANT SONGS POSTED...LYRICS OF SONGS POSTED... THAT DESCRIBE ME OR VIBE ME! Think of me and think of a song that describes me...or how you feel about me...or what I've written or what you hope for me! I WILL POST EVERYTHING!
Email me your links...song selections...links to songs...lyrics to lovebabz@gmail.com
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!