LOVE WITHIN

Love is a courageous thing.   Seeing possibilities in all things is optimism at its best.  To lay down your sword and remove your armor is a real act of liberation.  I have to let love in and let love out.  Fear takes on so many forms that we are easily seduced by what we think we see and believe.  Love casts out doubt.  Love allows for bravery.

Love is not unique to lovers or children or things and objects.  Love is not committed to theory and thoughts.  Love is action... the every day doing of kindness and generosity to myself and to the world around me.  Love starts within.  LOVE STARTS WITH ME SAYING I LOVE ME! by deeds and actions.  Love can't be pulled out when things are going well and I am celebrating.

I hold fast to love as it settles all around me.  Even when I am in deep despair and heartache.  Love prevails.  I only have to look upwards and allow the love around me to comfort me, and carry me to peace. You have to be willing to allow love to do that.  That is where the courage comes in...my willingness to allow love to be.

I AM more in love today than ever.  The love that I bask in comes from within.  One of God's gift to me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! AND HERE'S WHAT I WANT...

Turning 48 is powerful! I feel more of myself than I ever have. The fears that dogged me in my 20s and 30s seem like small grains of sand in the hour glass of my life. What was I so worried about? I am embracing growing older...I rather like it. I have learned a few things and I am compelled to make them cornerstones for living.  I am becoming.

So here goes:

No more catering to bullshit.

No more investing all my emotional energy into other's people's shit.

I will say NO to stuff I do not want to do.

I will wear what I want to if it makes me happy!

I will go at my own pace through my life.

I am tending to my own dreams.

I am stopping myself from caring about what other people think about my choices, 

my decisions, my life, my shoes.

I will go out more...ALONE!

I will do all the things that broaden my intellect and my experiences.

Will put myself at the top of my list EVERYDAY!

I am done having relationship conversations with people who are not interested in relationships.

When talking to people about their unhappiness I will point them to their own north star
 (because they already have the answers yet they act like they don't).

I am going to craft more...tap all that artistic energy that is waiting to be let out.

WILL FALL IN LOVE AT EVERY TURN.